What's wrong with me???

I've been in an emotional funk for weeks! I think I've figured it out, but I'm still in the funk. I'm having the longest pity party on record, I think. I feel defeated and deflated. Is it just PMS? No, couldn't be PMS that goes on for weeks! And I'm taking my meds, so that's not it either. I feel worthless. I feel small and insignificant. I feel like I keep trying to feel better, but nothing is working. I feel disconnected from people. I cry. I feel sad and lonely. I am grieving the loss of my marriage, finally. I am grieving the fact that I have never really been loved by a man. I'm groaning over the fact that I have so little money, and couldn't even buy myself a pair of $8 earrings that I saw and wanted. I feel pathetic. I've lost my God-focus. I haven't lost my faith, though, and that's a good thing. I guess it's just in a dry spell. It sucks, though, and I wanted to get it out there.