Didn't make it
I feel like such a failure. I had 9 days of sobriety and slipped this weekend, all weekend. My boyfriend said he can't take it anymore and neither can I. I don't deserve this crap. I haven't been to a meeting since last Monday. I think I need to go to the lunchtime meeting today, a woman's group. Thanks for letting me confess and vent. Pray for me please.
Please stop beating up on yourself. Start over, go to a meeing today. Try 90 meetings in 90 days.
I was a daily drinker so I went to 2 or 3 meetings a day. BTW, I also work 40 to 50 hours a week. I went to a meeting in the morning, than another one at 5:30 and then another on one at 8. I had to keep this schedule up in order to get time. I'm not saying you should do 2 or 3 meetings a day. I'm just sugguesting 1 meeting a day. Do you have a sponsor? If not...start shopping for one. Develop an AA network of friends. Don't just collect phone numbers....use them. There is help out there for you. Hang in there...it will get better. DarDar
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Keep trying. You are only a failure if you give up on yourself. Early sobriety is rocky for many of us. Mine was. Just keep getting up and trying.
Hugs,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
I read a quote somewhere the other day by Michael Jordan. It was something along the lines of "I've missed 10,200 shots, lost 5600 games and fallen on my butt 500 times. That's how I got to be the success I am today".
Each day you are alive is a new chance, a new opportunity, a new shot at being sober. Don't quit fighting. Don't quit trying. *DO* quit beating yourself up.
Let us know how you're doing!
love and light,
Michelle
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"God does not care about our mathmatecial difficulties - he integrates emperically!" - Albert Einstein
"God does not care about our mathmatecial difficulties - he integrates emperically!" - Albert Einstein