loril

did you make it through the weekend??

I thought of you....and prayed and sent you my vibes i hope you got them.




Liz

I know this wasn't directed to me but I slipped but was back on board by Sunday. Now is the easy part because the opportunity has been taken away as a result of the surgery. I guess I'lltake it as I can get it.

THANKS LIZ!  I didn't technically make it, but I didn't disappoint myself either.  I had a couple drinks on Saturday night in a social setting.  So when I say technically, this is a big departure from my "norm"---I am a binger and do it at home by myself.  So I was proud of myself that I had it in me to be out and about with actual people around and not be a bottomless pit!  But back on track, I will use this as a learning opportunity and go from there.  So I MUST HAVE FELT YOUR VIBES!! Telbereth:  Great luck on your surgery!  Let us know how you're doing while on the mend! Lori

Lori, I don't remember if you attend meetings, but it is a good idea to attend some and talk about the weekend.  I was a lone binger, but I also would struggle socially at times.  Alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful, and can talk to us and help us rationalize our drinking when we need it to.   I am glad that you are back on board, and learning from it. Hugs, Trish

I'm afraid I was under the assumption that just because I drank in an "ok" way and not my "norm"  at certain social times (usually binge alone also) that this was ok.  I'm learning (through meetings and other alcoholics' stories) that I think I'm just fooling myself and NOT being totally honest. Don't let the alcohol fool you.  God Bless. Denise

I'm slightly agreeing with Denise on this one.

To become sober is to become SOBER. Not sober for the week then have a few drinks on the weekend.

Step one in AA
We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable.

Your first post on here was about family being unmanageable at this point. I am by no means trying to offend you or make you feel uncomfortable, nor do I want to pust AA on to you, however, I don't think you have hit rock bottom yet. We are here to help you. I had genuine concern for you over the weekend to see if you made it through and you didn't. You said you didn't drink nearly as much as you would have normally, but you are still drinking. Understand this is a vicious cycle that controls us. I'm only 88 days sober and let me tell you...it's been the hardest g'damn 88 days I've had since my son passed away. BUT-I'm still here, still alive, and still sober. One day at a time honey,1 hour if need be. It works if you work it. I personally want to help you in your journey, but if you don't want to work the program, i can't help you. You need to be Completely 100% honest with yourself, if you are ready to take the plunge we are all here to support you, if your not ready, we are still here to support you. Only you can make the decision doll.


Liz