Acted out and working on taking care of it...
Marie,
You and I are very much alike. I was as insane with the kink/sex as I was with alcohol.
I, too, have such an incredibly wonderful husband now that I cannot even believe it. I did my best to sabatoge the relationship when it was new. He is in recovery also and suggested we take the relationship one day at a time and turn in over to God. WOW...what a difference it makes when I let God be in control and not me! We've been together 4 years now and are blessed with so much love, compassion and understanding.
As of this moment, I have been relieved of all my obsessions and compulsions. I still have my crazy/stinking thinking sometimes but by staying close to my program and to God, I don't partake or act out anymore.
It's been a long, hard, wild ride but believe it or not, I wouldn't change a thing since it all got me to where I am today.
Thank you for your courage to share which it turn, gave me the courage. You are also on a remarkable journey and its clear you are becoming better and better. Keep it up!
Karen
Albert Schweitzer
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