2190 days

September 25, 2007. 2190 days = 6 years. 6 years ago tonight, I was finishing my last drink.  I was a mess, a basket case.  My husband had left me in February, my two older kids moved to the Midwest in August and my baby left for college in Pittsburgh.  I was alone and in so much emotional pain, I could not see straight, so I was coming home and drinking most nights.   My therapist kept nagging me about the drinking because of certain medications I take.  He insisted that I speak with my psychiatrist, as there is some danger of mixing my meds with alcohol.  I hated it, because the alcohol was not obliterating the pain for me, and I was waking up in the middle of the night, hating my life even more.   Finally, after weeks of nagging me, he somehow convinced me to go back to AA.  I had spent 8 years in AA, but thought I found a better program online.  It was such a good program, I started drinking.  I had no accountability, or spiritual guidance.  The way my therapist convinced me was to tell me that if I continued drinking, I would go back to cutting, and end up back in the psych ward at the hospital.  I would lose my job, and end up homeless.  He then pulled out his Ace in the Hole.  He told me my daughter would be ashamed of me.  That was the kick in the pants I needed, because he is right.  If I went back to drinking, my daughter, who was 13 when I first got sober, would be ashamed of me.   So, six years ago tonight was my last drink.  I returned to AA and have stayed.  It has not been the easiest six years, and it has been a roller coaster ride, but in spite of the stuff life has thrown at me, I have grown and gotten better emotionally, physically and spiritually.   So, Wednesday, September 26, 2007, is my six year anniversary.  Or, 2190 days, one day at a time. I owe the last year or so to this forum, because I feared relapsing after my surgery.  You guys have kept me grounded. Hugs, Trish

Trish, I hear your courage coming through each and every post. Don't ever doubt it when I call you my hero. You ARE. :) I'm lucky to know such a strong, brave, courageous woman!  Congratulations on your sobriety! Love, Marie

Thanks, Marie, I only have what God has given me.  I am nothing without His strength and courage coming out in me.  Believe me, I remember the mess I was 6 years ago.  It was white knuckle, shaky sobriety for a long time. Hugs, Trish

Good Evening Trish..  congratulations on 6 years of sobriety.. and incase you don't know...  YOU have something I want.... and thank you for sharing it with meyou've been a great help and inspiration to myself!  So please keep coming back.. cuz many of us need you.. love you with hugssss, Rhonda  

Thanks Rhonda, What I have was given to me by God and the people who came before me in AA.  I am nothing without God in my life.  I remember the mess I was in six years ago, and cannot believe what God has done since then.   Hugs, Trish

Congratulations!!!!  You are a true inspiration!  Your sharing has helped me more than you could ever know! Love you!   Michelle

Michelle, You always make me smile the way you share your life with us.  It reminds me so much of me, it is scary.  Maybe we are sisters in another life.   Big hugs, Trish

Trish,

High Five  on the big    !!!! I hope you'll do something nice for yourself to celebrate. God is GREAT and so are you and the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Keep Stepping!

Love, Karen

Thanks Karen, I went to my 6 a.m. meeting this morning and got my coin.  It was a great meeting on the Serenity Prayer. Keep sharing and caring. Hugs, Trish