43 days

That's about it. I was out in my garden yesterday, and it was pretty hot, i thought to myself...all I want is a beer. Damn beer.

-------NO I DID NOT DRINK THE BEER------


Today I get to go be a movie star and get my picture taken by the local municipality, and finger printed yet again for the same stupid ass thing. Drinking and driving.

*shaking head*

I even went as far as trying to erase my finger prints off with literally a pencil eraser, then thought...dude, they already have them from the last one. I giggled a little.

Suprisingly, I am taking this much better than I thought. I'm waking up everyday, very tired, draggin ass, but once I get going, I'm fine. I'm thankful for the things I have, and am not being nearly as selfish as I was this time last month. I've finally weeded out all of the negative aspects/people out and am bringing in brighter, new, better people from my AA groups.

I pray every day to my higher power and I know he is listening. I even went as far as watching the 700 club yesterday. I know God is listening to me. It's little things, coincedences, that I see and think to myself. That's a sign of some nature.

I've been dreaming too. I don't know if this is common? More vivid like dreams, remembering. Waking up thinking, aww **** I drank last night, and I don't remember how I got home....when in all reality, I didn't. I've had 2 dreams like that. I woke up convinced I got super drunk the night before. Dreams of vacations as a kid, scary dreams, kind like dreams.....


Cool none the less. Now, what is SUPER cool, I am 43 days sober.


Liz

Congratulations on the 43 days!!!! and on saying no to the beer!  You need to give yourself a big pat on the back.   I am not an ancoholic myself but my husband is.  I just brought him home from treatment 4 days ago.  He is 31 days sober today and is at an AA meeting as I type this.  Yeah!!! Your're right...God is listening to you.  Keep your faith in him and I know you will continue to do well. A

hi hun.. i was thinking about you alot this morning.. glad you are good Daniel had some "bad" dreams about drinking too... I will let him tell that story if he wishes tho. funny you talk about finger prints and portrait.. I don't even remember them taking mine.. BLACKOUT.. but I'm sure they must have it.   Thank GOD I'm not popular like Nick Nolte and they have it plastered all over..  I think I prefer NOT seeing it now.. but it would probably be another enforcer of why not to drink!! Otherwise.. Dan and I are good.. we spent all weekend shopping.. but luckily only a couple yard sales.. and the thriftstore.  However.. I did tell him that we are gonna have to not go there for awhile.. it's just as addictive as drinking.. but thankfully not as bad IMO!! love YOU

Excellent choice not to drink a beer because it's pretty hot in the garden. I don't know about you but I NEVER had "a beer". I wouldn't even drink it if it were the only one. That's a 'why bother'.

I had lots of drunk dreams early in sobriety. Sometimes I still do. I believe it's one of my little angels whispering in my ear as I sleep soundly "HEY KAREN...DON'T FORGET YOU'RE AN ALCHOLIC!!!!". I'm always so grateful after waking up and realizing I didn't really drink. Thank you, Angels!

Mostly...CONGRATS and YAY on the 43 days. You and HP rock!

Karen

Liz, I am sorry I missed day 43.  Hopefully, today is 45.  You are doing great in coping with life on life's terms, while dealing with the feelings of early sobriety.  Keep on keeping on.   It does get easier.  I am not just saying that.  I am coming up on my 6 years anniversary and remember being a blithering idiot for my first year back to AA.  I would go to meetings and just share that I wanted to get drunk.  People smiled and said, "Keep coming back."   I felt like my nerves were all raw, and I was going to kill the first person who smiled at me in the mornings.  Thank God I didn't. Hugs, Trish