Day 9
I will hit another meeting tonight, to get back on track, 90 meetings in 90 days.
Altho, I am pretty excited today. Those of you familiar with the chips....I recieved my 3rd chip today.
Chip1-Becoming an AA member.
Chip2-24 hour sobriety.
Chip3-1 week sobriety.
Some may think this is absolutely rediculous to be so excited about a measly plastic chip, but Now this is a competition with myself. I know I can stay...wait...I should say, I know I have to stay sober for my own well being. This morning I heard too many people talking about deadly or damn near close to death relapses in the past few days. People in tears, crying for friends and family members. I don't ever want to do that to my friends/family. The guilt these people had was a little too overwhelming for me. So again, I cried. I was assured this morning that my eyes were merely leaking, and it's ok. One of these men even cried because I was a new member to this group, and he cried because he remembered how hard it was his first week/month, and he said "Liz, God bless your soul, keep coming back to these meetings. You have brought new hope to me today, and I only wish you the best."
Dudes, that's kinda rough at 7 in the morning. And it set the tone for the rest of my day. I am so greatful to have found AA, and actually utilizing it for my benefit.
I'll be back later tonight after my meeting.
Again, tell me if I start to annoy the **** out of you guys. I need this board as well as my meetings.
October, 1st, 2004-LapRNY
298/157/140'ish
and I need YOU.. one alcoholic helping another.. that's what keeps us SOBER.. Dan and I went to a 5:30 AA meeting yesterday.. studing the Big Book.. I like that meeting.. 1. it's on my way home from work.. once I get home I hate going back out 2. I need a studing meeting of the Big Book.. Dan and I are doing very well.. TODAY HUGSSS TO EVERYONE
I know I have a horrible habit of smoking cigarettes one after the other when I am sitting in front of my computer at home.....I don't want to assume, but would he consume alchy while online, nearly out of habit. I did that with wine...till I realized I was drinking 1-2 bottles in a few hours.
Tell him to get his ass on here.....not the drama boards....this board.
*wink*
October, 1st, 2004-LapRNY
298/157/140'ish
Lizzie... I am not sure why Dan does not... if I try to answer I'll just be speculating.. so I will ask him and let him know what you asked/said. Actually I have wondered that myself.. and even the other night when I called you.. he said he didn't want to talk. I wondered then why not.. and said to him. Why?? I thought it was alcoholics helping alcoholics that keeps us sober.. and he said since he did not want too, that he probably should. That it was his alcoholic side that didn't want to talk but you didn't answer the phone *sigh* so I just left a message.. but Dan does get on the puter.. but just lurks on the boards. Also.. he has been working really hard since coming out of rehab this last time to get to 1 or several times 2 meetings a day. Looking for a job.. which I think he got one.. and started this past Monday so his hard work and surrender to his Higher Power *this time around* is showing him that the PROMISES do happen.. when the 12 steps are being worked!! I'll let him know that you want his ass on THIS BOARD..
Listen up doll....
Step 12 of the traditions.
12. Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.
Principles before personalities. Who cares what everyone else thinks about you. That is thier problem, not yours.
October, 1st, 2004-LapRNY
298/157/140'ish
Albert Schweitzer
Yeah for Day 9!!!!! No, it's a totally big deal that you have 9 days and that you got your coin (chip). It's rough to get sober and I am grateful that you share it with us. If it's any consolation, I was a water bucket myself and don't think a day passed in the first year that I didn't ball like a baby. Looking back, I remember how much that helped me to heal. So I say........good for you.........life in recovery is so much better!!!!!!!
Martha