SCARED
I understand your fear, and that you are hurting your family.
Have you tried any self-help support groups, such as AA, or Sobriety for Women? I could not have gotten sober without AA.
If you need to, you can e-mail me. [email protected]
That's the first step...realizing there is a problem that you can't solve by yourself. I would also encourage you to find an AA group where you feel comfortable. Not all groups have the same dynamics so if one doesn't "feel" just right check out another one. There are people there who want to help you, it helps them stay sober too. Get a sponsor and start working the steps and you'll NEVER have to drink again.
God bless
Bev