SCARED
That's the first step...realizing there is a problem that you can't solve by yourself. I would also encourage you to find an AA group where you feel comfortable. Not all groups have the same dynamics so if one doesn't "feel" just right check out another one. There are people there who want to help you, it helps them stay sober too. Get a sponsor and start working the steps and you'll NEVER have to drink again.
God bless
Bev