What was I afraid of?

I went to the meeting. Since I was the only new comer, they totally changed the format and everybody kind of just talked to me. It was really enlightening and I look back now and wonder wtf was I so afraid of. I was told by several that they knew how difficult it was for me to walk in there by myself like I did. That's reassuring. I got several of the women's phone numbers and made plans to attend a meeting tomorrow night also. Somebody there gave me a big book. Lots of people hugged me. I cried. It was all very surreal. I won't say I didn't like it, but it was weird. Everybody was so very nice. I'm grateful for that. I didn't run into anybody I know either, but now I know that if I did it wouldn't be a big deal. So thank you guys who have inspired me to be more courageous. I'm glad I did. I'm going to take this little white chip out and look at it and ponder the concept of hope. I'm beginning to understand that being "dry" isn't necessarily being sober. I want to be sober, not just to be a non drinker. I want peace. Love you guys! Michelle "riding the horse today with a bruised behind" C

You go girl!!!!! I am so proud of you. You went to the meeting and put your hand up and told them who you are. The most important person at the meeting was you. Most meetings I go to will tell you that the newcomer is the most important person at the meeting. Read the Big Book and see if you can learn anything from the first section. Chapter Five is How it Works. That tells you how the program operates. In the back are the stories of people just like you and me that had a drinking problem and found the solution. See if you identify with any of them. As for the wreckage in your relationships, there are steps in the 12 Steps that address that. Hugs, Trish

Oh Michelle ~ I am crying right now! I am so happy for you! Your story brought back memories of when I went to my first meeting and that was only 3 months ago. I do admit to a slip up in between so it will be awhile before I get my 3mo chip, but thats OK. I have never felt better. I dont claim to be free from temptation, but I havent felt better. Hugs to you!!

YAYAYA! So glad to hear it went well for you. You did amazing. Most people just go, they don't ask for numbers. WOW! You're one step ahead. Do not be afraid to call those people. I give out my number, did last night to a newcomer and I asked my friends to do the same, I really hope she calls me. It was her first meeting and I totally thought of you. I was praying you were at a meeting too! So glad to read this. It sounds like you found a good meeting and don't be scared to read that big book. It will probably seem like gibberish at first, it did to me. It was months before I could "really" read it. My homegroup is a big book study and that helps so much. I also suggest if you do read, read the story in the back called Freedom From Bondage. It is my absolute favorite. It's very similar to my story. I'm just so excited for you! Remember one day at a time! Amber