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on 1/25/18 4:46 pm
Hi,
I am planning VSG in 2 months. I'm 5'9" and weight 290lbs. My goal is 190lbs. I'm 54 yrs old.
I was wondering about hair loss and sagging skin. What was your experience there?
Thanks,
Dave
Todd, I have that same fixer mentality. And yeah, reexamining the important things is important.
I've been staying within my calorie limits. I'm not even really hitting them. I know my protein goals are not being met, and I am bringing that back into line. I've been living on protein bars and beef jerky, with the occasional hamburger or piece of chicken. I am really sick of protein bars. But this is temporary. I'll get through this weekend, and things will start to normalize again.
Sorry to hear of the loss and tragedy, Bill. Even tough men can accept help, glad to hear about the immediate support. I rarely pass on an opportunity to talk about long term care and recommend making use of a counseling service.
Taking many different personality assessments, I am aware that I am a fixer and with that I can come across as complaining. I've been a little grumpy over my modem breaking, shoveling 12" of snow, caring more about a Vikings loss than a person should about a sporting event, and picking up slack at work for peers on vacation. Hearing what really matters is grounding and reminds me to to not sweat the small stuff.
My diet has been varying by the day, either perfect or horrible. Perfect is ~1,000 calories with heavy protein and low carbs. Horrible days are ~5,000 calories eating and drinking all day long. More good days than bad days. Some moments of self reflection about still dealing with my grandma's passing nearly 2 months ago. Our mind moves on from constant focus - time heals. Major life events leave a finger print (or boot stomp) on us that has ripple effects. Recognizing how her passing has caused me to reflect and stress on finances is one impact. Realizing my avoidance of relationships and how thinking about entering the dating market has lead to some self-sabatoge is another area I'm working through.
Been charting my weight daily, 318.6 last Sunday, didn't weigh this Sunday - Monday was 320.2. Up #1.6
Best,
Todd
5'10" Male : Consult Weight 428 1/16/14 : Pre-op m1 -3, m2 -12, m3 0, m4 -27 : SW 386 : m1 -25, m2 -22 m3 -15 4 -12: LW 278 CW 320 : Total Loss 108
Well there is a little good news coming out of all this. The change in environment for my Mom has improved her desire to be active to a certain extent, and certain other behaviors that she was comfortable with, but were tough to handle are going by the wayside, at least for now. She has a lot to process.
For myself, I?ve actually lost weight. I had to return home for a short time today to retrieve some tools I needed, so I got to weigh myself. Despite some alcohol in the evenings and cranberry scones for breakfast which the church ladies brought by, I am down two more pounds to 270.
ETA: I will write this too. I do understand about the difference in doing this as your calling versus coming into it on a personal level. This week has been full of the hardest things I have ever experienced. I am constantly reliving the image of finding my Dad on the porch, and then telling my Mom. Next up is having to explain to her how I had to put their 16 year old dog to sleep. Anything else would kill her just the same, only slower and more painful. I also have been tapped by the two pastors involved in the funeral to deliver the eulogy. But I am a big tough guy. Not so big as before, but at least as tough. I'll make it through this.
Bill,
I'm not going to try to compare apples and oranges. What you experience in this situation is different than what a first responder does. We have to compartmentalize to be able to function and mentally survive. I can tell you that there have been times where the lines have blurred. I've lost friends to being killed in the line of duty. I helped do CPR on one of my former Chiefs from his house to the ER after his second major heart attack. Did the inquest on our recently retired city secretary's husband who passed at home from COPD. Sent her son to prison too. Dealt with two suicides in so many weeks. One was an elderly gentleman, who was partially paralyzed after having a stroke several years ago. His son is Chief of the local junior college's PD. The second one was an OD in a storage unit that was a WLS patient, that according to her mother, became an alcoholic after surgery 10 years ago. She left a 15 year old son behind. Caveat to her story is that the boy went to live with his bio dad in, I think, Mineral Wells and is doing fantastic in his drama classes and band. Grandmother was proud to show me the pictures of him a year later. Best part of my job is helping people. May not see the results immediately but when I come across somebody who has turned their lives around after being a crime victim, maybe been a defendant or simply getting their head out of their ass - damn onion ninjas.
200 on Sunday...I hate weigh ins!! I need to keep active (or eat less junk)! Well off to pick oranges...Just to keep busy. Brian
Bill,
My condolences. I have been through a similar situation. Take care of yourself. You are not alone. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
-Bob
Thanks. I am not being as rigorous as I would normally be, but I'm not going completely off the rails either. I found an old bathroom scale this morning. I have no idea how accurate it is. My scale at home is an old timey "doctor's office" scale with the weights on bars. Anyway, I was just under 272 on this electronic scale of unknown accuracy and quality. That is in line with where my weight had been for the previous week, so it seems that I am at least maintaining.
