A year in review

DreTheDog
on 12/16/09 8:24 am - Keller, TX
Haven't been around here in a long time. Just saw the bookmark and said maybe I'll post a note I posted on Facebook last week. So here it is to share with all you fellow Weight-loss folk!

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One year ago today I had a huge life-changing experience. I flew down to Mexicali, Mexico and had weight loss surgery. A "Verticle Sleeve Gastrectomy" to be exact. It's been a wonderful experience so far. I weighed in at 421 pounds the day before my surgery. As of this afternoon I'm weighing in at 252 pounds. Two pounds from my goal-weight. I will continue to loose because I don't feel 250 is quite where I want to be still. Perhaps my new goal will be 200 pounds. Right now I'm just going with the flow. I thank everyone for the support and great words. I'm damn proud of myself and feel like a new man.

I'd have to say even with the negative things that has occured this past year, it has been one of the best in my life. I've had more fun with my friends than I typically would have. Spending weekends out at the clubs, spending full days out at Scarbourogh. Having an unbelievably fun time at Dragon*con. I've met some great new people (Mark, Garrett, Dwain, most of all Heather).

I really got into my hobby of photography. A few other side-hobbies as well, which I enjoy quite a bit when I do them. I bought 4 kilts and know that I love wearing them. I've played a lot of Rock Band, Guitar Hero, Halo3, and World of Warcraft.

With the good, comes the bad. I've been unemployed since July with only a one month contract since that time. I'm back on the unemployment band-wagon. I've abused alcohol and lost control of myself for a good period. It wasn't where I had to drink everyday. It was mostly out of boredum. Where I'd loose control is knowing when to say when. Through this I've done some unbelievably stupid crap.

I've also grown distant from my family. Can't pin-point why since they've always been there for me. I'm sorry for this and will work on being around for them more. Only thing I can think of that made me do this was being tired of being around happy people in my loneliness. That was very selfish of me. I know they love me and would be there for me regardless.

I gave my heart away recently, lost control of my emotions, and did a lot of stupid things to ruin something good. I have many regrets, but am now working on keeping a good friend. And staying a good friend as well.

This birthday and Christmas will be lonely as usual. I'll have friends and family around, but it's something different inside of me this time of year. There is just something missing in my life. I thought I had it, but it has gone. I pulled out the Christmas decorations I had bought last year, but put them right back away except for a stocking on my wall and wreath on my door. I just can't bring myself to put the rest of it up. It's just not a happy time for me to do so, especially when I'm the only one around that would appreciate it. Just seems like a waste. Perhaps next year will be different. Who knows really.

I for one believe that all things happen for a reason, whether we control them or not. Everything will fall into place as it should, when it should. For now here's what I've learned through this year and what I have planned in my head for next year:

- Your inner-monolog is best written in a journal rather than blurted out to the world on Facebook or MySpace.
- Not to give up my heart and compassion so quickly and easily.
- Be a friend first.
- Take things slowely.
- Trust in my what I feel in my heart always.
- Know when to say when.
- Eat.
- Don't let my emotions get the better of me. Especially when intoxicated.
- Work on relationships with those I hold dear to my heart.
- Have a good time.
- Quit smoking.
- Get a job and/or go to school.
- Work on my hobbies more and more.
- Be happy with myself.
- Learn and strive to be better with oneself.

This year in review was much more detailed in my head when I was thinking about it yesterday. It seems much shorter and to the point now. I know there were a lot more good things that aren't listed. And a lot more things that should have been listed for the future.

I hope you all had a great year and will have another great year. For me now, I just have to continue to go with the flow of things. As much as I may say things will not repeat themselves the way they have, you just never know what is in store for you.

To all people tagged in this note, you are a few that have made this year great for me. There are many others, but that would just take to long! LOL!

Happy Holidays, and a Happy New Year! To friends, To family, To love. Cheer's to you all!
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DreTheDog
on 12/16/09 8:35 am - Keller, TX
Uploaded some more recent pics.
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sjbob
on 12/18/09 12:49 am - Willingboro, NJ
As to your relationship with your family, you may want to ask them if they see a change in your relationship.  You may have had a tradional role within the family that has changed due to your weight loss and eating habits.  For example, when I was growing up, my Mom would clear the leftovers onto my plate and my Dad's.  I learned to eat beyond being full.  I was lucky to grow up skinny, but when my exercise went down, the pounds came off.  Luckily, I just live with my wife and we don't see the extended family often.  I've had to tell them straight out that I can't eat like I used to.

Now, as to the Christmas spirit, you may want to volunteer in your community--through your church or a service organization.  These are things you were probably unable to do when you weighed more.  If nothing else, see if there is a local soup kitchen that needs help or Habitat for Humanity to name a couple.

Take some time during the day--even just a few minutes-- to reflect on your life and to be thankful for your blessings.  Also, take some time to pray--there is no minimum time for this.  Some days you may just want to say, "Thanks, God."
sjbob
on 12/18/09 12:57 am - Willingboro, NJ
Oops.  I previously said that the weight came off as I stopped exercising.  Just the opposite occured.

By the way, sometimes when I post to this forum, I'll continue typing but nothing shows up on the screen.  Then, I'll resume typing and everything I've typed is there.  Luckily, I know touch typing and just continue typing until my sentence is complete.  Then I usually wait for the print on the screen to catch up with me and to make sure I haven't made mistakes.
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