WLS and Depression, first brush with it

So, you know that you were mildly depressed.  It seems that you do know how to reach out and that you also now know who to reach out to.  If you can tell someone how you are feeling you may get a better response.

Sometimes we just need someone to talk with.  I get these moods that come over me and I panic.  It hasn't happened in the past year but it usually happened about once a year.  Just speaking to my wife helped me.  Similarly, my brother also suffers from depression ( it's the family curse) but he doesn't go into panic mode.  When he realizes that he's getting depressed, he gives me a call.  That's usually a signal that he needs an adjustment in his meds.  We're lucky that we've never needed to bear our souls to each other at the same time.

There is a guy on our Forum who gets severely depressed from time to time.  I gave him my regular e-mail address.  And, I cleared it with my wife and gave him my home phone # and told him he could call me anytime day or night if he just wanted to talk or even pray.  He's never done that but we do correspond occasionally.

I know to reach out, just i dont know what to tell them.  If I am having a low, empty or lost feeling there is not much to put into words.   

Sometimes I feel like I'm not supposed to be here. truthfully I am happier around death. It has always been that way. When I was in the 8th grade my dad took me to a cemetary to try and scare me cause i messed up in school.  Well after that I started to hang in the cemetary. I figured that was where I was supposed to go if I had a problem. If i see a good one I will sometimes stop and take a walk, its just a draw to me.

lol one time I was in one walking at dusk and I tripped over a marker,  had I been 2" taller I would have cracked my head on the foot of a raised tomb.



 I tried taking meds when I was in my 20s for depression one time. I did not like the way they made me feel. I could not do much of anything when I was on them. so I stopped taking them. 

Have not been to the beach in a few weeks.. Might have to take that trip tomorrow.

I've had depression issues off and on over the years.  I have viewed them as temporary and situational, not a chronic thing.  I guess I thought that my future weight loss would be a magic pill curing my various ills.  Thanks for the heads up and the courage to write about it.

You're absolutely right about the power of speaking to a neutral person.  What a great guy to tell you his story and share with you.

My depression had gotten so bad I actually had a suicide plan. Two of them. Only problem was I knew I would not do them but it was enough to scare me to see a shrink again. This one has diagnosed me as treatment resistant depression and a major depressive disorder. I take the following


300mg welbutrin
12mg invega
20mg lexapro
100 mg provigil
25 mg HYZAAR For high BP

I feel on a more even keel and have even lost a couple of lbs. Under 400 now.

I think some of it may be the surgery and some of it might just be life.  I happens to a lot of us.  If you recognize it and are not coming out of it, go talk to a professional.  it can really help.  Till then, force yourself to take a walk, ride, etc.  Be with people and stay away from alcohol during this time.  It can pass, with a little help, and often does.

Hope you can get it worked out.  If you can't, don't be afraid of some started meds to give you a jump start.

 

Lou

man, i'm with ya on this.  i've had some major issues lately with feeling out of sorts.  i've chalked it up to hormone changes (and yes the estrogen thing) and chronic fatigue from burning the candle at both ends and the middle.  i'm at 10 months out from surgery and have lost 200 lbs (431 to just under 230 this morning), but my workout regimen (2 1/2 hours to 4 hours a day 5 days a week), family life (two small children), and work commitments (business travel and longish hours always on), have taken the toll.  thank god i have a supportive wife, or i would be in serious trouble.

hang in there, but talking about it seems to help me when i hit the lows.  last week was the worst one while i was on a business trip.

 Wow 200 in 10 months congrats.

no wife or kids here,, no job (looking) and running out of funds.

so if i wanna talk have to come here. I met someone 2 weeks ago but don't want to scare her off this soon. Even though she noticed I was a bit fused on Sat and wanted me to talk to her about it, I just blew it off..

Went on a 4 mile bike ride today to get things off the brain,  lol got a mile down the road and realized I forgot my Ipod.. 

I wish I could work out like that. I do 30 min of intense stretching after a few miles of riding and I feel like I am going to barf. talked to a trainer about it and she said I am pushing to hard to soon and to take it easy. 

i really had to work up to it... i started with walking then moved on to other things, i didn't hit the bike and/or running until months after working out regularly.  stick with it, it takes time, but without it, i never would have dropped the lbs that i have...

This is gonna sound flippant, but I don't intend it that way: I was about 3-4 months out, about where you are right now, and feeling a little depressed. Not bad, I've never had suicidal thoughts or anything like that, but just kinda in a funk like a thick malaise was just laying all over me and every thing around me. I got out of bed and went into the bathroom to take **** and I could see my **** First time in about 7-8 years I'd seen my junk while standing. Not that it's all that damned impressive, but still..........I could see it. Cured me for the rest of the day.

I don't know that I've hit any depression yet... but there are deinfitely days I just don't recognize myself... don't feel like myself. That in itself sometimes bothers me a lil.

I think as far as the hormones go... it's definately effecting the libido, and unfortunately I've got nobody in my life to help me out there, and that, I think, is leading to more feelings of lonlness than depression.