Fat Thinking regardless of size = faux pas?

Hey Dave, And I thought 350 was huge! ('Course I'm short, so it is huge for me.) I think I agree with you about never completely losing the notion that I'm a big person, or at least a potentially big again person. I know too well from experience that I can never take any sort of weight loss for granted. It's too dangerous to forget. I feel like a recovering alcoholic--not cured, but in remission. Good luck on the upcoming surgeries. From some of the before and afters I've seen on this forum, you can look forward to some great results.

hey dave,

i remember how much your life changed just with the apron removal. wasn't it like 100 pounds or something? anyway, you were amazed you could walk around again. i think if i started where you were my WHOLE life and outlook would be drastically different. actually, don't know if i would have the guts to do what you did. that much weight must have been so dibilitating and screwed your mind up big time. that's just a whole different league. all the more amazing you pulled through and are normal! makes me feel like i had a couple stitches compared to your ordeal. anyway, you're still the man! carbonblob

Hey Doug,  I stil catch myself saying somethig like "not bad for a old fat guy" and people look at me like WHAT. The only time I realize my size is sometimes when I get dressed in the morning.  Talking about tan clothes, I have taken on a couple of new jobs at work and I now have to dress in office attire. No suits or anything. I bought several pair of pants,( off the clearence rack of course), and I now wear different colors that I would have never worn before. I had a lady tell me I look nice and asked me if my wife picks out my clothes. I told her I dress myself.  I don't know if I will ever get over the perception of being fat.  pan head

Hey pan head, I hear you. I sometimes refer to myself as "fatty" and get a "what?" reaction. I'm getting a little braver when it comes to clothes colors, but still tend toward dark colors. It's taking time to move beyond old habits. Many years ago I had a couple of motorcycles, a Honda and Suzuki (both twins, by the way) and thought I could get away with being a porker if I adopted a shaggy, biker look. I overlooked the fact the the genuine Harley guys (back before Harley's were trendy) weren't just fat guys wearing beards, long hair, lots of black. I don't think I fooled anybody but me! Congrats the new jobs and attention from the ladies.

I've been within 10 lbs of my weight for over 6 months...and let me tell you...I'm not sure my mind will ever catch up....lol.  Being "thin" is normal..and yet when I look in the mirror ...when I talk to people..etc ...I don't think of myself as thin... Scott

Hi Scoot, I'm with you. I can't imagine my mind ever catching up with my weight. But why should it? I fooled myself about how truly fat I was for decades and I was always the fat kid or fat guy. So, I'll just have to be patient and practice the program to maintain a decent weight.

I have always worn the "big guy" badge with honor. To this day (pre-op) I would still choose my past life at 300+ pounds over being the little guy in class. I am hoping to get the surgery and I anticipate a large loss in the first 18-24 months. I also anticipate that through good eating habits and exercise bringing my weight up to a healthy 190-200 range. I will happily live within the realms of normal but would never have liked being a little guy.
Paul

Good point. I guess that's why I keep seeing "normal-sized" and lean guys my age and height as puny right now. My mind knows that they're healthy and fit, but my feelings don't match. I still see them as little guys. Part of the sickness, I suspect, that caused me to confuse bulk with strength--although there is some truth to that! I was often the strongest guy in class, even if I couldn't run very far. But as I aged, muscle turned to you-know-what. So congrats on getting surgery and picking a target weight that will keep you from being that little guy we didn't want to be.