Panic attack...

You know, you'd think after 3 years (off and on) of investigating this surgery, and then the last year of that 3 in active pursuit... that I'd have all the 'jitters' out of my system.   Well, last night I was entering the month's important dates in my online callendar.  Put payday, doc appts, bill due dates, etc.. .put my pre-admission test appt.. then thought.. heck, even tho I know when it is.. can't forget.. might as well put the surgery date.. just so I can see it.. have that goal in front of me.. I suddenly realized.. I had been holding my breath... not really sure how long... I let it out in a rush, heart pounding, almost dizzy...  and hate to admit it... felt fear. WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT???   This is me! Calm, cool, collected, logical.. got it all planned out... meals and drinks planned, getting house ready, contacted important people, giving encouraging speeches to my family about how 'it's  all gonna be ok.. it's good for me!"... and I lose my breath just writing it down?  With just over 2 weeks to go.. I think the reality is finally hitting me.  I seem to be getting very emotional.. something I hate. Tell me this is common, right?  I wasn't expecting to get the 'what have I done's ".. til AFTER surgery.. .. LOL. Dale

Thems the good butterflies me thinks...

Its common and you are right about on schedule.  It passesYouare also about due for the ultimaums from well meaning family and friends about the mistake you are about to make. It isn't a mistake. I wish I had done it 10 years sooner. Hold on there Lyric dude,...youare also tothe fertile land of FARTS and your spot on the bench has already been designated.  We be wait'in,...or is that weight in???

HC... I was thinkin that was possible too.. just shocked. Joe, Thanks.. actually, my family is real supportive, they've seen what I've went thru.  Plus, I have 2 sisters, and 3 good friends who've had it. Only thing that is annoying me, is my family telling me that my goals for post surgery activity are too high.  My goal is to go back on the road and be my own boss again. I keep getting told that 'those days are over... it's time for you to grow up, get a desk job, and take it easy'..  See.. pre-injury, I worked at least 60 hrs a week.. it's all I ever knew... usually 2 jobs at a time, plus my ebay business.  I don't know any other way, and now.. they keep telling me 'I can't'.. because tho they are skinnier, they are much weaker. I refuse to accept that, I will get my life back... better than ever... more active, more travel, more business.  I never want to sit still at a desk at someone elses whim again.. LOL. Dale

I'm right there with ya Dale........WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Chip... life changes in 10 days for you... 18 for me!!

 

Dale

 

Change is goooooood.............

You hang on to your goal there Dale. If you get your protein and water and some exercise, yo can accomplish whatever.  Those complaining about weakness usuallay aren't getting their protin or taking their vitamins and/or supplements or exercising or any comination or worse yet, all of the above. You hang on to your goal and make it a reality. Rock and roll dude!

when those feeling**** just have a couple of beers and they'll be gone, pronto (or pop a Valium)!    &:-D)   but seriously ..  like Tom Cruise said in Risky Biz, "sometimes you just have to say 'what the fu**!'" ...   Keep in mind that you're having this surgery to save your life ...  believe that with all your heart,  and you'll be brave and go in fine .. !  

It'll be ok there Dale. Jitters are normal. Kinda feel like your going up on a rollercoaster and about halfway to the top you say to yourself: "what the hell am I doing up here"? Just wait till your in the pre-op room...LOL. Its a major step, but you will be fine. Sit back and enjoy the ride. And dont hate getting emotional. You need that to release all the inner tensions. There are no medals for bravery, only the rewards that follow.....Good luck.  Good luck to you too Chip..hope all goes well for both of you.