Just need some venting

Hey Seht,  I know how you feel. My wife has not been that much of a support either. Don't get me wrong, she hasn't done or said anythig negative, but her idea of support is telling my that's great when I tell her what my weight is. My support is from this group.  I had those same feelings pre-op, just thinking about throwing up my hands and saying screw it. But I would think back to what got me to the point that I decided to have the surgery. At my highest I was 375 at 5'9". It was to the point it was all I could do to wipe my own ass and I got to thinking what will I do if I gain even more weight? What got me through when I was doubting my decision was thinking about that. I have never told my wife what made me decide to have surgery. Just to humiliating. I knew based on all the weight I have lost in the past that I would just regain it plus more. You have to do this for you. Whether your wife goes through with it or not, I wouldn't even let be a consideration. You deserve this for you. It sounds like you are doing everything to be succesful with surgery. Don't throw all the hard work away.  I cannot put into words how much better my quality of life is. I replaced an exhaust pipe on my harely the other evening. Had to take it completely off and put it back on. I would never been able to get up and down and to do it at 375. When I was done I stepped back and took a look and thought to my self, I  did a better job than they would do a the harley shop, because it is mine and I care about doing it right. I use to do all my own mechanic work and now I can if I want to. Before surgery it just not possible. The little things like that are what's great.  I think I am starting to ramble. Just wanted to say hang in there. pan head