so ANGRY!!!!!!!!!

Okay... I need some honesty...or to be honest!!  I am so INCREDIBLY angry right now.  I am hungry...but terrified that I will gain a pound and stretch my pouch.  I want to eat everything in sight...not out of hunger but out of anger, boredom, depression, etc.  I am just so angry right this minute..that I can't have a twinkie..or a cookie...or a bowl of ice cream without worrying about the sugar content...if it will make me dump...where is the protein...empty calories, etc....  I DONT regret surgery...not sorry to have had it... but mad at this very second.. I feel that I am not in control.  I don't have the discipline that I want (again).  I simply am not happy being me..right now....Thank god these moment occur INFREQUENTLY....... and no, I don't need pyschiatric care.  I need ho-hos...and ice cream...and oreo cookies...  I need a chocolate milk shake with a side order of hot fudge sundae.  Most important... I want some tlc right now, somebody to cook me dinner for a change, or a restuarant meal..that I can enjoy the whole meal...  oh well.......... THANKS for the rant and rave!!!!

Hey Daniel, So, you're hungry for some oreo's, ice cream, and a side of whatever else you can stuff in your face. Wow! You wanted me to be honest, right? And- did you also say these craving happen infrequently? Then- I would say that you should explore feeding the craving. Don't go crazy with it, but look into some lower sugar alternatives that will satisfy the cravings. I don't believe that you will be able to eat enough to gain weight. Especially, if you watch the sugar content. I guess you could eat what you can, wait an hour, eat what you can again, wait an hour, and eat what you can again, etc. I don't believe you would have that mindset. After all, as far as you've come, do you want to make a U-turn and start heading back to Fattville? I know I wouldn't. There are a lot of sweet alternatives out there, as you already know, go check 'em out! I'm not even sure if this was two cents worth! Ronnie

I feel your pain, man. Believe me. That's a hard thing to say. Some people will tell you: If ya want an oreo that bad, have one. Just one... Other people will tell you you're an addict and eating that cookie is like an alcoholic taking a drink, will just send you down a slippery slope to failure. Me personally? I say have a little taste of the bad stuff and then have a decent amount of something OK for you like some cold SF pudding or Skinny Cow "No sugar added" Ice cream sammiches.

I totally agree with you about the one..just one....  I know that I don't have will power and if I can eat one and do okay, then I will try two or three...or ten till I get sick.  Needless to say, the honesty, that I have limits my food....because of my choice!!!  I do think, however, that I should get pudding again..  That would be a good, easy, and sweet treat!!!

Thanks for the two cents...it is definitely worth it.  It isn't as if I am craving all the time... I am not even hungry...  I am just dealing at the moment with head-hunger aka...the wanting to eat...just to eat,  Meals are still pretty small (normal for a gbs person)...but since I can snack here and there... I do...and it bothers me.  I keep saying to myself..don't get back into the bad habits..  It isn't about the foods either.... It is just sometimes I get so ticked off by the fact that this surgery (which saved my life)....has limited my life.  Sometimes, I just get angry over the fact that food choices have become limitted..  Again.......thanks for the comments, it is appreciated... 

Daniel, I can feel for you.  I know I haven't gained, but I have been been eating a lot of things that I don't need.  It is so hard sometimes to let it get the best of you. I wish I had the right words, but I'm hoping and praying that your urges pass or that you can try something just to take the edge off. Tommy Alabama

Thanks....I have been working out..so the gaining (a pound or two) comes possibly from the food and/or the working out...  I just have to get myself back on focus....back on track...  I also need to stop snacking...and get back to the discipline that I used to have....

Fortunately there are many foods that taste sweet but do not have sugar.  Most are sweetened with Splenda.  You can look at www.netrition.com and see many diet foods.  You may want to have some sugar free snacks around the house for this type of an occasion.

I agree and I know...my problem is not eating all of it....at one time or in a few minutes...  I could eat a box of sugar free cookies in one sitting (an hour or so....).  I have to get back into all or nothing....