Update somewhat.

Went to the surgeon's office a couple of days ago because the feeding tube was leaking ***graphic warning***  pus.  Doc said it's alright, just as long as I wasn't leaking entire cups of them.  That was a load off my mind.  A whole bunch would leak out in the middle of the night when I'd be sleeping.  I'd taken to padding my right side with wads of toilet tissue.  It seems that it hasn't leaked as much in the last couple of days.  Praise Jesus.  Oh, yeah.  I weighed in at that time and I am 20# down post-op.  Isn't that wicked!?

I've also been dealing with what my friend (post-op) calls the "blahs".  It's like I can't bring myself to be excited about or be happy about anything.  It feels almost like depression.  I had to get my therapist and a couple of good friends to swing on by to check-up on me.  This really sucks.  I kind of have to make myself do things that make me happy.  Otherwise I won't care and just lose interest.  It was hard enough to even post this damn thing.  Anyone else experience or heard of this?

All normal Z.  Make sure you are getting outside often in the sunshine, among other people.  I'm not sure what your routine was before surgery but I guess it involved more people interaction than what you are getting now.  That always helps me.  Getting out and walking, just around people.  Even if it is sitting at a Starbucks for an hour here or there.  Something about the vibe of being out among people in a bright location always helps me.

Don't worry man. that will all pass. I went throught the same thing. It is pretty much like a drug addict or an alcoholic detoxing. I thought I would never make it through. Get through the next couple weeks and I promise it will get better.

Thanks, i figured it was something like that.  I went from a busy and high human-interactive life to zilch.  I guess seeing the same environment and doing the same old thing everyday is getting to me.  Something similar to cabin fever?  Ha!  I just got to figure out where to go and hang out.