Hey CB!

Good to have you back and in great form.   Sorry about the pain you're having but man,...I've been reading the Board the last two days and you are back and the experience is just gushing out.  I have missed that from you.  Keep it going.  I'm lovin it.  We,.. I learn alot from your insight and experiences. But warn me before you describe the trial fitting for that electric back pain harness thing.  That was some kinda of vivid desription that cost me a couple swallows that got sprayed rather than swollowed,...but it was worth it. Rock on Dudemeister. Joe

thanks so much Joe, I've been enjoying our posts and private emails so much. I was commenting to my g/f that this is uncharted territory for me. I have never, and I mean never opened up like this. then again with what's been happening to us in the past few weeks, i can see where i'm a different person. i have a need now to get things out. i think it's a detox of a different kind. i guess i need to tell my story and hear from you and the other guys that i'm not some little baby or wimp but i've got problems and did the right thing by coming here and fessing up. it's all about admitting to denial, helplessness over my problems and asking for your help. not the thing i used to ever do. like an addict i need to come hear and stay accountable. so in some ways some guys will have no idea what i'm talking about but i think they do under it all. we were all helpless when it came to food after all. this board helps give me a little time away from grieving for Chili or thinking about my detox and a host of other issues. so i'm just posting like a maniac because you guys are it for me. i hope i can repay in some small or big way. as for the pain thing, it's nothing near as big a deal as what kokomokid, dan, is going through. his is an implant and mine is just alternating shock waves. whew, at least it's not connected to my balls! so i'm in a big hurry to get this going so i can get some relief since i'm on nothing for pain. i'll keep you posted and thanks so much for thinking of me amidst all of you own issues.....Carbonblob

Hi CB and Joe,

Sorry to cut in here, just thought I should jump in and say, the only "weakness" (if you could call it that), that I see is a huge sense of responsibility for yourself and others. You really take the problems of others on as your own. While it's easy to become overwhelmed by that, it's definitely something that world could use a lot more of.

Dave

thanks Dave. i think Dx was a big inspiration for me like he is to alot of others. he posts endlessly to help others on this board on top of what must be a very demanding job and family life. Randall too. the Wad, hell, the list goes on and on. You too my friend. I think you have motivated me and alot of others here to be accountable for our exercise and keep the routines fresh, to experiment, research and read everything we can that pertains to changing our lifestyles and staying fit and healthy. it must be the natural teacher in you! anyway, thanks for the kind words to us.....Carbonblob