Swoosh Reality Check!

Summer is here and I get a small break from lesson plans and meetings (well I don't have to go anywhere but I still do alot of mental planning).  Decided this not just a time to plan for class but also for my continued success with my weight loss...which ha**** a road hump...

I received a note a bit ago from someone that read something I had written at a time that I was REALLY unhappy with self and the way things were going for me and my weight loss.  She didn't beat me up...she didn't click next and ignore it...she did something awesome, she sent me a note to my in box trying to encourage me.   (Even Swooshes need encouragement at times)  I was at a point of frustration with my band and my Dr to seriously consider throwing in the towel.... I have finally gotten brave and am changing band Dr.  Not happy with the care I have received at the old one so I am working on setting up a new Dr and getting self back on track.  My band has a small slip and offers intermittent restriction ATM, but often makes me sick when I eat different things.  Acid has been a big issue as well, as much as I dislike pills I have found that taking something for acid in am and pm is helping.  Hoping to see new Dr and get band fixed. I have put on weight (MY FAULT, I have found that while many good for me things are troublesome many bad for me things go through no issue, so I have to kick self in butt and put them aside.  It doesn't help that the guy I am with is a carb junky....not that I shouldn't be able to control self but it is hard when he is always eating ice cream, slushies, and flavored coffee (topped with whip cream of course.)  

And making things worse.... the gym has opened a summer program for kids... don't get me wrong I LOVE kids...but not 50 of them swimming and splashing around me while I am trying to workout in my little 4x4 area.  I need to get over it or go use the machines in the gym part instead ( I don't enjoy those, boring).

I am doing somethings right,  I still have my protein every am in my coffee,  I have been spending time in yard doing some projects (built two gazebo things, removed all grass and weeds from area for flowers (that was harsh), but I need to do more.

So there it is, even Swooshes can have band issues, Dr issues, and food issues that are never truly gone only maintained.  Pulling out my whips and chains and beating the carb monster BACK INTO the closet! I made a promise to the fat girl in me years ago to protect her....hardest part is that i have to protect her from herself.  

Holding self accountable, documenting food, exercise and starting over.......NOW :)

....just keep swimming,

Swoosh

Aim with you I hate the gym. I swim or do water aerobics nearly every day. I am fortunate to have found an adult only pool in my neighborhood when I don't go to an actual class.

Tell the live in how you feel about all his carb eating. I am lucky that my husband always asks if he is doing anything to interfere. I have actually got over the carb thing and enjoy everything I eat. I think that helps me stay satisfied.

Keep reminding yourself what the stuff he is eating did to you. I know you don't want to go back to that person. You are strong.

I hope your new doctor treats you better and gets your band working for you!

Hang in there!

I hope changing docs will be a big boost for you and help get back on track. Wish you the best and I know you can get back on track just like you have before.

Thank you for your positive words :) It will get better :) Working on controling carb monster is main goal atm, well and getting self in gym again.  I will get this back under control. :)

Thanks,
.just keep swimming
Swoosh

 I have no doubt you will get it all back under control in no time. You are a very determined lady even if you fall a little off the wagon. But it's not like you would ever jump! 

You got this Swoosh!  I'm with you all the way.

 Tiff, how are you?  Haven't seen you on the board in a while!

 I lurk only sporadically. I can't stand the petty surgery wars and no-it-alls. I hung on there for three years, but I just got to that point....  So I went underground. Lmao. It wasn't hard with everything in my world happening in the Same year. 

Hubby graduation, move, buying new house (waiting for appraisal) and moving again, pregnant, finishing up my school and working full time... I'm warn out just trying to itemize it! 

But things are really good. Only 11 weeks to go and I get to see my baby girl. Her name is Zoey Kai. No doubt she'll be a perfect blend of the hubby and I and will come out sporting a red headed Afro. Lmao!

So ya... Been off the boards but feeling really good. Food consumption has been a challenge but the md is happy with where I am. I'm up 16 lbs. think.  Not too shabby.

I'm taking a page out of your book and doing prenatal water aerobics. Just keep swimming!