OT: Thank you

We buried my ex husband yesterday....was a very odd thing to do, to be there with him and have no fear, and even simply covered with sadness.  Sadness for my sons mostly, for myself a bit thinking about how things could have been different between he and I, and sadness for his family. I had pulled money from the "fat girl" fund and bought a nice flower spray and had it sent from my sons to their father, getting there I was very glad I did...they were the only large arrangements there and my eldest son kept remarking how much he appreciated them. I was glad that the flowers did what i wanted them to do...they comforted my sons a bit, reminded them how much I love them.  They each stood like strong men in front of the group of people and spoke words about their father.  They did an amazing job and I am very proud of them.  It was funny because when I left Jeff so many years ago...I had to leave his family too...I missed so many of them.  Today they embraced me and we were glad to see each other. (everyone was amazed at the weight loss and kept commenting on how great I looked, that made me feel good as well)

I guess I'm getting off track, but it is 4am and I cant sleep :)  I wanted to thank everyone that took the time say a prayer, jot a note, or toss me a life preserver when I didn't think I could swim another step over the last week.  Thank you, you have helped keep me going from across the miles and I thank you. :)

...swimming a bit stronger,
Swoosh

 Your still in my prayers and thoughts.
Glad your swimming stronger
Wendy

I've been praying for you and had written a long note to you and then the computer "ate" it. Anyway know that you are indeed still in my prayers, this will take time to heal and your boys will need you all the more. You will be able to keep swimming maybe just a bit slower for awhile. Sending you love and peace!

Glad to hear things are a little better. What a great thing you did, with the flowers! Also, glad you felt our heartfelt good wishes sent your way. Great job at swimming without quiting!!

Deaths are such a trying time.  Deaths with unpleasant history are even more stressful.  But when you can take the high road (as you did) and even experience some positive results, what a bonus.  You are such a survivor.  Keep swimming!