y do i keep doing this to myself.

 Had bad reflux, pain after i ate. turns out i iwas too tight when the did upper gi. They took out .75cc
Relief. Then i was eating more and hungry all the time. I gained 2.4lbs. So I went to get a fill and they said they would not suggest it because i also have ( i fogot what they called it) but there was possibly some stretching. They think it will bounce back if we leave it alone for 6 mo. They are afraid if i stretch too much they would have too take out a lot more which would be worse.
Soi was so depressed that I ate cheese puffs 1/2 a bag. 
I wanted to admtt it to someone so here I am. I know what i have to do get hold of, myself ,and get back on track follow the rules. everytime you time you think you have figured yourself out bam i screw up. grrrrrrrrr i wanted to get to goal by my seconf bandaversiry. 
Just angry and feeling sorry for myself.
Wendy

Wendy I think most of us here are probably emotional eaters as well. And the band is very unprecictable and therefore can be very stressful. Inconsistancies with restriction, slips, leaks, fills, unfills, fills again. I fully understand how it can cause stress eating.

Good luck!

There are lots of us who have never been able to get good restriction, always either too tight or too loose. I finally had mine emptied so it doesn't do anymore damage. Some of us just aren't meant to have a band, our bodies are just too sensitive to have one.

I could have written that post!  I am not completely empty- but practically.  I can eat anything I want.  Mushy bread and steak sometimes give me a problem.  It was frustrating and depressing to have the band not be the tool I thought it would be.  The good news is I lost all the excess weight, I was self pay and I think the money laid out was a huge motivator.  Also the high protien diet prescribed seemed to work really well for me.  I am struggling with a 15 pound weight gain, going back to basics, journaling, low carb, excersise.

I have marked every event, good and bad, in my life with food. Every stressful day I burried under a bag of chips or a double cheese burger. And as I sat there "medicating" my pain, I called myself every kind of failure. It made me feel like crap some more, so I reached again for food.
When I started my 6 month diet my insurance required pre surgery, I messed up, and I had to come to terms with the fact that just becuse I have a dietary slip up does not mean I am a failure, it means I am human. I would get back on the horse the next day, and maybe add a couple parking spaces to my walk in to work, or do a few squats as I looked for something in a low cabinet. Not that my piddley extra steps negated all the calories I had taken in, but it reminded me that I have control of this boat. I am the one at the wheel, and the course is all mine.

I'm right there with ya partner but I guess we have to look at the bright side of things.  At least you only ate half the bag. I'm trying to stay on the bandwagon even though its hard when my scale isn't moving; however, thankfully, I'm not gaining so....I will press on I reckon.

It's not easy, this is for sure. We still need to do all the things a non-banded person does to lose weight. One day at a time. You can do this. You've already come so far. I'm almost 5 years out & still have not hit goal... BUT I WILL!

 Thanks to you all for the support
wendy