I feel like a complete failure- today

Since my pre-op diet I have stayed 98% right on track with my eating. I eat the 1/2 a cup I am suppose to and that is it. I have had a snack  once in a while at night but nothing big and not late at night. I was never really hungry post-op. When I went for my 2nd fill appt 19 days ago, I didn't even think I needed a fill. i had lost 11 pounds in 6 weeks and wasn't hungry. My Doc said he felt I needed a fill because the first one was very small and as I lose weight, I will lose fat around the stomach. So I did get the fill. Since that fill I have been more hungry. I thought it was just a freak thing. For instance before that fill I couldn't finish the 6oz Greek yogurt for breakfast around 9am and I wouldn't get hungry til around 1. The week of the fill I started eating the whole yogurt ( and allowed myself to because 6oz of Greek yogurt for breakfast is reasonable). I get hungry by 11:45. Since my last fill I am also having a sharp pain at my port location. It comes and goes is this normal?


Okay now to today and the reason I feel like a failure. I ate all day. What is wrong with my? I know better. I was eating when I wasn't hungry and I ate so much crap! I feel like such a piece of crap for being out of control. I grabbed a Greek yogurt on my way out the door. It was bad so I couldn't eat it. I was in a rush so I went to McDonalds. I haven't done that since before surgery. I ordered a breakfast sandwich and took off half the bread. So I ate the egg, cheese, and the top pancake. Then at lunch I grabbed a Greek yogurt. I ate that then I ate puff corn while in the car pretty much snacking on it all day. My family went apple picking and while there I ate apple ice cream and an apple donut. I came home and ate a slice of pizza.  I feel like I am going to vomit all over the place.

I know many of you are going to say why are you eating that kind of crap 3 months post-op. My answer is I haven't til today. I don't know what happened it was like I went nuts. I feel exhausted and stressed. My body feels so sick from the food I put in it today. I have been on plan since June 1st.

Has anybody else had a bad day like this? I already planned my meals for tomorrow to get back on track.

I am worried, why am I more hungry after my second fill?
Thanks for listening!!!

 we have all done it sometime in our journey.. I just did it Sat. at a family reunion. I couldn't help myself..There was so much good food and cookies and cakes.. I know I shouldn't have doone it but, my will power took over.. Don't beat yourself up over it..Just start new tomorrow.   Hugs   "Lucky

Stop beating yourself up! It doesn't help at all and trust me we've ALL had those days. Fortunate for you your tummy isn't liking it so just start fresh tomorrow and leave today in the past where it belongs. not one of us is perfect even us vets, maybe especially us vets cause we've had more time to screw up! Just hang in there!

Thanks ladies.

I agree with the other ladies for sure! I have done every diet out there, and there are days where you just lose control and dont make the best choices. Just know tomorrow starts being perfect again. You can do this. You have come so far already. Keep us updated and good luck.

I am having a crappy day today also. This is my first one so your post makes me feel "normal." Don't be discouraged by minor setbacks. Just recognize the problem and get back on track. I have had tendencies to do this in the past. I realized when I deprive myself of certain things I would have days where I went OVERBOARD. So with the band I decided that I will not try deprivation, just be mindful of my choices and portions. None of us are perfect...you are human. I haven't even had a fill yet so I am terrified right now. I haven't lost any weight this week (retaining fluids) so I feel like a total loser. I just hope with exercise I will see some loss by my visit 10/19/11. Good luck!!!!! Don't be so hard on yourself...

I went on vacation back in May and I gained like 6lbs in a week, I was so mad at myself,.  I ate fried chicken, fried shrimp, pie and all kinds of junk....  but when I got home I stuck with the high protein, low fat, and low carb diet and lost the weight I had gained in about a week,    Good luck to you, we all mess up sometimes, but it's never too late to get back on track....