ANXIOUS!!!
A couple of things I did was very helpful to me.
The first thing I did to help my nerves was, I read the book, "Prepare For Surgery, Heal Faster" by Peggy Huddleston. I also listened to the relaxation CD every morning. It really helped my nerves. Here is a link on Amazon. You can even download the book.
http://www.amazon.com/Prepare-Surgery-Heal-Faster-Techniques/dp/0964575744/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1305376063&sr=8-2
The second thing I did was I made a list of why I want and need this for me, and I read it everyday. Here is my list:
1. I hate the way I look when I look in the mirror.
2. I’m not comfortable when I sleep. Almost every morning I wake up with an enflamed lower back because my butt is too big for me to lay flat on my back. I rarely get a good night's sleep and NEVER get 8 hours in a row.
3. I want to not have to be worried that I won’t fit into the seat at a restaurant, theater, or on an airplane. I want to be able to not take up my airplane seat and part of someone else’s.
4. I don’t want to have to check the chair before I sit on it to see if it’s sturdy enough, afraid it might break with me in it.
5. I want to be more active – able to run, go skiing, and all the things “normal-sized" people do.
6. I want to be able to shop in regular clothing stores, and be able to wear pretty colors and not just black.
7. I don’t want to have to worry about all the little things normal sized people don’t think about fitting through – turnstiles, carnival rides, furniture, etc.
8. I just want to be healthy and feel good about myself!!!
I just know you'll all do great. Just stay focused on why you're doing this. There are so many inspiring people on this site, and we're all on this journey together. Before long you'll see how far you've come, and you'll wonder why you hadn't done it sooner. You can do it!!!
~ Barbara
I'm feeling the same way. My surgery isn't until July 18th. The thought of waiting 64 days is killing me. The year it took to get here wasn't bad because I had other stuff to distract me, now the surgery is all I think about. I think maybe reading all the success stories and looking at the before and after pics is making my anxiety worse, but I can't seem to stay away. Although I'm soooo nervous about how my life will change after the surgery, I'm ready to start my success like many of you have. I have the patience of a 5 year old....it's a terrible thing.