down 33 but a little scared

I think if you're a WLS patient, you have been through many fears, and one of the big ones is always failure.  It is always looming for me because this "new way of life" is still a work in progress for me and many of us.  I'm learning so many things on this journey.  One is the trading of the feeling "full", which is not usually a pleasant feeling, for the feeling of "not hungry" which is a much more pleasant feeling.  Also, when my stomach makes noises "like" growling, it isn't always a hungry growl.  Sometimes it's just a noise.  And I'm sure there are more things to find out as we go down this road.

I can relate. I am one-month post-op and I was having problem with pureed food. (I have a problem with certain textures.) I was doing well so my surgeon said to move to soft foods and slowly start introducing fork tender meats. Well, every thing I eat, my band likes (so far). Flounder, chicken, tuna, vension. I haven't gotten stuck or been sick. So this weekend (and weekends are the hardest for me) I found myself standing in the kitchen, looking at the "snack cabinet." I wanted M&Ms. I wanted them bad and I was pretty sure when I chewed them up, they would slide right down. But I turned the label around and told myself "Self, NO!" My husband yells from the living room, "What did you say baby?" haha. Anyway, I put them back. An hour later, my son opened them, and I confess.... I ate about 10. Did they slide down... yep. Were they good.... yep. Did I regret it....yep. But it's done. It wasn't worth it and hopefully I won't do it again. It's a mind game from here on out. And I am going to win. Just tell yourself that - YOU ARE GOING TO WIN. We're come too far not to.