1-yr Out and A Failure

I had my surgery 4/11/10. At my lowest weight I lost 43 lbs, which was back in June. I have gained 12 lbs back, but it feels like a hell of a lot more!

Right now I am down 31lbs and feel like a total failure. I'm not eating right, my gym closed down 2 months ago and I have not been able to find an inexpensive alternative, so I'm not really working out either (I know excuses, excuses).  I have made attempts at starting over and failed. I went to my NUT, but she was less than helpful. I have an appointment scheduled with my doctor next week and am hoping that will help.

Has anyone else experienced this? It's so frustrating and makes me sad, which makes me eat!  Ergh!!!  BTW-I am also seeing a counselor to help me with handling stress in a more healthy way.

I am just so MAD at myself!

(((( HUGS))))    You are not a failure first of all ! A failure would have NO reportable weight loss and would not have a clue what they needed to do about it and would cetainly have not made a DR's appt to get back on track !!!! Hang in there let your band work for you ,You got it b/c it is ADJUSTABLE so this maybe the time you need to get it adjusted and start over !  You can do it !!!!  Go back to the basics . We all get off track at some point.

 I don't want to "go all AA" on you, but the first step is admitting you have a problem, and you've done that. GO see your doc. Go back to your nut and demand that she earn her friggin' paycheck. See a therapist, if you can afford one. If you can't find a gym, at least get to the mall and do some mall walking - it's free.

You know what your issues are, and that's a HUGE part of getting back on track. If all that fails, I'll drive to you and put a foot in your butt! 

LOL - I love a little tough love! 

 Here's a little something to start you off:

 Bette - you ROCK!!! 
~ Barbara

I am newly banded and not out of the honeymoon phase. But when one of my biggest reservations for getting the band was the fear that I might stagnate or start gaining.  Then I realized this is a lifelong struggle. It was like when I stopped smoking. I failed so many times. But I just had to get back up.  I decided I would not throw in the towel if I fell down. I will just keep fighting to get back up. (havent lit up since 96). 

I think you are just a little bit discouraged now, but 31 lbs is awesome!.  You have made that appointment and soon you will probably get a fill.  Maybe you can make a buddy who will watch you for accountability.  Perhaps you can also commit to walking just 10 min a day.

Please hang in there and dont feel discouraged. You kept 31 lbs off and you are about to have an appt and a likely comeback.   

Bette is right the first step is admitting you have a problem...

I lost my father last year and between Thanksgiving to New Years I gained TWENTY POUNDS.. to gain weight that quickly you can imagine how much food I was consuming .. actually it wasn't even that much food it was JUNK.. bags of chips and candy and cookies.. but my tight pants made me more depressed still mourning my dad I knew food wasn't the answer it was never going to fill this huge void or bottomless pit I felt inside.

So I stopped eating junk.. I still wasn't super strict with what I ate but I stopped eating junk that was my first step.. then I started moving more back to the gym a few days a week then when I lost 5 pounds I started to get my mojo and started to really watch what I ate and I started tracking again and increased my exercise a bit. If you don't have access to a gym I suggest investing in a video .. Like Lesile Sansone is just walking indoors and it's not as easy as it seems or drive to a park with a walking track and just walk... There are options to get moving.. join a Y maybe?

I think seeing counselor is great this is a journey and you have had some set backs doesn't mean you aren't going to succeed.. I think some of my greatest successes is knowning what I'm capable of and what I am not... I am capable of sticking to my meal plan if I plan ahead and make a few things that last me the week. I am NOT capable of buying a box of WW snack cakes because i will eat the whole box. The truth is most of us are food addicts we consumed too much food for too long, or we turned to food to feed emotional issues and even then we consumed too much... More than losing we weight we have to change HOW WE APPROACH FOOD.. our approach can't be the same even if we have the band. I eat today how I plan on eating for the rest of my life so I'm not super strict on carbs or super low calorie ..

I wish you luck .. stick around and keep us updated we are here for you (hugs)

Bette you're great!!

I also wanted to point out.. Could you have been down 31 pounds without the band?  I've NEVER lost 31 pounds at one time.  So that is a HUGE positive.  You are still DOWN 31... !!!  You go girl. Just get back on that horse, you can do it. 

YOU ARE SOOOO NOT A FAILURE!!! 

I too have struggled, but it's NOT the band, it's me.  I had figured out how to eat right around that band.  It becomes so much easier to do when you are stressed or in a hurry.  For me - it was those things, plus that fact that I could not eat the solid proteins and the right food, causing me to .  Therefore eating around the band was so much more simple that talking to the dr and seeing what if anything the problem might be. 

Well, as I thought, I was too tight.  Not too tight however that everything I ate came back up.  I received an unfill to the point of where I was right after surgery.  I am retraining myself on the basics of eating with the band, and will revisit a possible fill if necessary in 30 days.  It's that simple. 

I am a food addict, that didn't change with the band.  What did change is my ability to make the decision to take responsibility for my actions and stop being ashamed.  Like another poster said - get back on that horse girl -- you can do this!  We are all in this together....

  Katie.