Wow - not what I expected to find

Wow, I'm just floored.  I've been absent from the board for almost three weeks.  For good reasons and bad.  First I was away for a week on a cruise with my daughter.  It was absolutely fantastic.  Unfortunately we came home to find that MIL was in the hospital.  She came home the day after we did, but went back in a few days later.  We almost lost her to a server GI bleed.  In less than 48 hours she received 15 units whole blood and 6 packed platelets.  So very, very stressful.  I feel off the wagon a bit, first time since surgery that I really let stress get the better of me in the eating department.

Anyway, because of going spending so much time at the hospital and on the road back and forth to the hospital, I really had no online time and wasn't able to log on and read the posts.  Tonight I finally have a few minutes of down time.  I figured I would check in and see what was going on and maybe post about the struggles I've had over the past two weeks.

So now I'm just blown away by what is going on here, again.  I normally stay out of the drama and keep my mouth shut, but I can't tonight.  I'm mad.  I came here to relax and maybe ask for support or at least vent about the past two weeks.  I can't do that.  Why, I'm afraid to do it.  I'm stressed right now and the last thing I need is to bare my soul and risk being attacked for not losing enough, or my band must not be working because I didn't lose last week.  Right now with all the stress I know I wouldn't react well.

I'm angry and sad now because I feel like I've lost a vital portion of my arsenal in my battle against weight.  I've lost a venue where I was able to be open and honest, where I could give and get support.  I feel that is gone now because I just don't feel comfortable opening up.  Hopefully that level of comfort will return.

Wendy

Sorry..it's something that happens around here from time to time.  If it bothers you, use the block button and block posters who antagonize you.  

There are many great people who post on this board.  I've gotten many great ideas and support from them.  But it is the internet so sometimes you get craziness too.  I don't engage the crazy.  Life is too short to wigged out by people I don't even really know...and probably am glad of it.

:) 

Thanks.  I know what you mean.  I'd hate to block posters because I might miss something - I'm very nosey LOL.  I didn't mean to imply that anyone had antagonized me personally (at least not yet).  I was just afraid, in my fragile state last night, to post for fear of being pounced on.  I just wasn't ready or willing to open myself up like that.  And I agree with you, don't engage the craziness.  Lord knows I have enough of that in real life!

Wendy

Wendy - I am SO sorry you are feeling this way towards to the boards...I get it and it is breaking my heart to read such posts.  Please know that I am and will remain supportive of you, no matter what you are dealing with and whether or not I agree.  Because this is a SUPPORT forum, not a critiquing forum.  I take my need (and other's needs) for support very seriously. Please feel free to PM me if you need to chat.  I will always take the time to respond, lend an ear and provide suggestions in the event you are having troubles.  PLEASE KNOW THIS.  

Thank you so much Lisa.  I really appreciate it.  You hit the nail on the head - I didn't want to post last night because I didn't want to be critiqued.  I certainly know what I did wrong and I'm my biggest critic.  I knew that I just would not have handled it well if I were critiqued by others (I get enough of that at home)

Thank you again!

Wendy

Agreed...we get enough judgment from peers and biased idiots in real life.  It's just the LAST thing anyone seeking support needs to feel is judged.  Thanks for posting Wendy.  I hope you are in better spirits...today is a NEW day. :)  Hugs...

Wendy-
I'm so sorry you aren't feeling support that you really need on the board tonight. You sure have had a lot going on in your life lately. So sorry your MIL has been ill, and being at the hospital for extended periods of time + stress definitely  makes it really hard to stay on the wagon. I say that is when I am just hanging on by my fingernails.  We all go thru tough times and need to be here for each other. I know I need sure need support when I am down. Hang in there, you can get right back on track. Don't let some negativity take your couple of bad weeks and turn them into 2 months. You are worth more than that! (I've been on and off this board for years and that is pretty typical for the ugliness to come out for a while, then it calms back down)
Sherie

Thanks!  Boy I wish someone could find a cure for stress.  The last two weeks on a scale of 1 to 10 were 15!  Stress is my downfall.  I've been doing a lot of research and boy are those stress hormones nasty things.  They sure like to turn off our fat burning switch - Yuk!

I'm sure things will calm down soon.  I definitely need calm and even some boredom LOL.

Wendy

Wendy as long as you don't hate your band or have band problems there should be TONS of support on here for you!!!

No, I don't hate my band.  I'm very happy with it.  It's not broken, I've been "broken" the last two weeks.  Have to work to switch off the stress hormones.

Wendy