THAT song reminds me of some nameless people I have met on my journey, funny I was thinking that just the other night about that song. (no one in here, believe me) As for the other, no matter what relationship your in, keep the lines of communication OPEN and TALk about how you feel. mix some drinks, go by the pool at dusk and just talk. It sure beats keeping it all inside, and wondering about all the "what if's" save yourself some time and grief and just tell Pam how you feel about all this. Sandy

I finally got the link to come see you guys. WHAT THE HECK HAVE YOU BEEN DOING? I miss my support system greatly. Please tell me what is going on in your lives. I have moved into a new house that is falling apart terribly. I am working 2 jobs, but I like them both so it isnt really a problem. Me and Daryl broke up and he is gone for the summer. I met a new guy while I was in Daytona and it was wonderful for the first 2 weeks. We talked on the phone for 46 hours over the last 2 weeks. See, he lives in Cincinnati. So, I thought it could be something great. You would understand too if I had told you all the things we were able to talk about. I had been praying to God for a very long time to bring me someone who was around my age, never been married, no kids, decent job, intelligent, never been in jail and would love me for me. I know, crazy thoughts but then this guy just appeared at the airport. He fits every category plus some. He is romantic, funny, loving, outdoorsy, and he is H-O-T HOT!!! But, he is scared of me taking Daryl back and he is scared of being hurt and he is scared of the distance. But, he told me he hasnt been this happy in 7 years. DOES IT MAKE SENSE FOR US TO NOT TRY TO BE TOGETHER???? No, it doesnt to me. But, even though my heart is breaking, I am still doing ok. I have plenty going on to keep my mind off of things. Sorry, I talked your ears off. Please share with me how everyone is. HeatherwhoisnowskinnierthanIhavebeenin14years -139 Size 11

I need to take a couple of dishes to my sister's birthday party on Friday evening...my nephew asked me to bring something and nobody ever turns him down... Anyway, he said something about "since you love to cook." Well, he hasn't been paying attention or hasn't noticed, but I no longer cook. I can't stand on my feet long enough to cook anything and my kitchen isn't set up to where I can sit down in it and chop stuff, etc. Anyway, I am going to have to go buy something and I don't want to just get ready-made potato salad and cole slaw...which is kind of what he mentioned. I used to make this KILLER potato salad and if he's expecting THAT and gets some ready-made crap.... They are getting chicken and pizzas and have ordered a birthday cake with an old woman with saggy boobs, etc. (It's my sister's 50th birthday, so we have to do the "Over the Hill" thing.) Do any of you all know of something I could go get....brand names or places that have some good stuff that tastes good? It's gonna be all I can do to even do that because this week has been the worst for me pain-wise to date. I can hardly get out of bed to go to the restroom much less run all over town buying stuff. Going to Wal-Mart...oh my god, don't even mention it; my legs wouldn't even make it into the building. It's going to be all I can do to drive to Sheffield and get my parents and then drive them to the other side of Florence to where my nephew lives and then drive them back to Sheffield and then drive myself back home. **** I can't even wrap my mind around that. But now I have to bring a dish too? I might could get my dad to make some cole slaw because he makes some really good cole slaw. I could probably get him to make the potato salad too, but I don't want to ask him to do anything. He mows his grass and was outside trimming the hedge on a stepladder the other day....even though I have forbade him to get on ladders. He's painted the brick at the bottom of the house. He gets around way better than I can, but he is 90 years old, so geez-louise, he shouldn't be doing ANYTHING like that. So technically, potato salad and cole slaw aren't that big a thing, but the thing is my nephew asked ME to make it. Anyway, if ya'll know anything I could take, please email me and let me know. I used to collect recipes that are quick and easy....like the veggie casserole (drain a can of veggies, add a dollop of mayo and some shredded cheese, top with crushed crackers, dot with butter and bake....that sort of thing,) but even that is too much for me. And then I've got to transport it. It's just too much. I'm stressing. I hate being like this. I truly hate it. I am craving Burger King right now and can't get out of the damned house. I am tempted to call the girl across the hall and hire her out by the hour to go get me a whopper with cheese....dammit, I want two of them. But I haven't got enough cash on me and I can't send her to Burger King with a check. And she might not even be home, but I am just obsessing over Burger King right now. I hate my life. Sheesh, I'm going to bed. Thanks for listening to me whine. I am just SICK of this. Love ya'll and I appreciate ya'll loving me although I don't see why you do since I am always miserable. Joni

P.S. Thanks for the email! Love you! Joni

Hey Beth. Sorry you couldn't get any rest. I hope everything works out for you. Linda