WOOOHHHOOOOO I knew you would ace it YOU GO GIRL!! Kim

OK -- No more denying that the bad habits are slipping back up on me (can't deny it when my scale is screaming at me that I need to get a grip!) I am now up 6 pounds from my lowest weight (2 of which have reappeared after this past weekend -- how in the hell can you gain 2 lbs. in 2 days!?!) I went and rented a storage unit this weekend -- and because of the heat and my brother being at the house, I decided I would move boxes after he left for his fishing tournament and it cooled down a bit -- so I headed to the mall to hit some great sales! Since it was his birthday -- I splurged and bought him a $90 pair of shoes on sale for $25 (tax included) and a t-shirt which reads "You have the right to remain silent, anything you say will be misquoted and then used against you!" (How befitting!) While shopping, I stopped off at Chick-fil-A and got a chicken strip combo. I figured the chicken was a great low calorie/carb choice! But I wound up eating all of the fricking waffle fries instead and only 1 chicken strip! Ok -- so I screwed up! I should have just gotten the chicken! Then yesterday, since Buddy was in a good mood that I "remembered" his birthday -- I splurged and bought pizza (a stuffed crust for him - and he mowed the backyard for me for doing so -- so I can't complain about that trade off because of the heat) and a thin crust for me (so I didn't gag on the crust). Typically I only eat the toppings off the pizza, but not yesterday -- I actually ate the whole pizza minus the crust!!! I didn't do it at one sitting -- I kept going back every hour or so for another slice until it was gone! I've got boxes packed all over the house and need to move them into storage - but this damned heat has me absolutely drained (or is it my crappy food choices -- I've not made up my mind about that one yet). I did resolve a few issues with my brother -- and am pawning off about 18 cases of books on him (thankfully so too -- I sure wasn't looking forward to moving them -- and they're now obsolete [not to mention, no resale bookstore, charity, library, etc. wants them!) So how'd I polish off an otherwise crappy food choice weekend you ask?!? How about a nice double shot glass of wine!! Oh yeah -- the calories in that one alone make a coke look like a diet soda! So why the hell am I surprised the scale is up 2 lbs!? It's not like I didn't know I couldn't have what I ate -- but did it anyway! Now it's back to being a good girl -- salads for lunch -- high protein for dinner -- and back to those nasty supplements! CRAP -- why can't we all just be born with a fast metabolism instead of so damned smart and good-looking!?

Hey FB! If you need anything, errands ran, a chaufeur, or just company...let me know! I am off to the post office and then to the school. Hoping to get my classroom together today and tomorrow and be done with it! Love you, Becky

I love you too Mom!

It might be time to give Mama some tough love and just tell her once and for all you are grown now and can make your own decisions for YOURSELF, without having her input. Of course not knowing your mother its easy for me to say and harder for you to deal with. Mama might benefit fom some counseling sessions with you but then Im sure by now she is set in her ways and if its one thing I know, you can not change a elderly person's mind, once they have it set on something, thats it, ITS THE LAW as far as they are concerned. Call them ahead of time and ask them not to do anything special food wise, for your birthday. You can tell them you are on a strict diet which will be the truth., and you dont want them going out of their way to make anything you cant eat. Then you can decide wheter or not you are going to tell them, when you see them. My grandmother has always been anti WLS. I just came out and told her straight up and she was very supportive. I think it helped, my cousin, had had it 3 years ago and went from 389 down to 175 before her eyes. She saw he did well from it and is still doing good, and I think that helped to alleviate some of her fears for me. You have my prayers while your crossing this bridge, and you will get pass it and move on. Sandy