I'm sorry I missed out too. I'm keeping your cooler comfortable but it still misses you. Love ya Dixie p.s. what about a montgomery dinner. Randall was supposed to be getting one together. Any news?

Kim, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. We all go through spells but it seems like this ha**** you pretty hard. I have done exactly the same things you have done and not known what to do and basically ended up doing nothing and it all came out in the wash. Just remember that those that love us know that we go through these things and the best thing they can do is give us some space and be there for us when we do come back to normal. I know this doesn't help much but I know exactly where you are coming from. I have been thinking about going back to my doc to be put on some sort of medicine too. I've tried it all though and the only thing that worked for me was effexor and it is way to expensive for me to even try to get back on right now and not even sure if it would work for me since surgery. You have come so far and you are a success. Just remember that please! We are all here for you. Just pick yourself up and dust yourself off and Keep on Truckin'!!!!!! Love ya Dixie

Linda Herring 109 Timberland Trace Madison, AL 35757 Birthdate: 09-12-1972 Wedding Anniversary: 09-02-1994 WLS anniversary: 05-06-2004 I like most everything. My favorite colors are colors like Hunter Green, Burgundy or a Wine color, Maroon, Dark colors like that. I collect angels and teddy bears. I have no idea of what my new kitchen will be decorated in. I have apples right now, well really all kinds of friut. I think I will go for ?? I just don't know. I love Christmas stuff. I love that time of year. I collect jewelry....all kinds. I love shoes. And now I am starting to love clothes. Oh, and I love buying different kinds of hand bags or purses. I have a thing for those. I use Lancome makeup/face stuff. I love bath and body works stuff. I love candles. Well I guess I just love just about everything. I hope I have given you enough info. Are we doing the secret pal things again? I am so excited. Love ya, Linda

Hey Everybody. I hate to be a whiney butt.....but I seriously need some insight. I've had a rough weekend (the 3 year anniversary of my mother's death).....so it started hitting me about last Wednesday. ..... not caring about anything, wallowing in my self pitty, being pissed off at the world, etc.....I didn't think too much about it and gave myself permission to feel my feelings, grieve, or whatever I needed to do. I was such a TOTAL B*TCH this weekend that Pam (SO) stayed as far away from me as she could ... due to the fact that she could do nothing right.....say anything right, look at me right, etc. Sounds just like PMS, right?? Wrong! that was last week. Anyway, I've dealt with occasional depression, moodiness since I was a teenager....have been on Zoloft and a couple of other drugs at different times for depression/bipolar disorder/chemical imbalance / or whatever catchy phrase was popular in the medical community at the time. I decided several years ago that I needed to get to the root of the problems that have kept me unhappy at times in my life......so started years of therapy/cognitive behavior therapy/12 step programs for adult children of alcoholics/ codepents counseling/church/Meditation/Hypnosis/Burying my problems in SEX (or depriving myself of sex)/whatever catchy self help programs were available at the time. Ok, so the point I am making in all this is I KNOW and am aware of HOW to treat depression/deal with emotions/channel positive energy.......my problem is, WHY? Why am I SO happy with so many areas of my life (new career opportunity that allows me freedom to be in a line of work that I LOVE AND pays good money, married to the love of my life and not a day goes by that I don't KNOW that I am loved, have lost 106 pounds and feel better physically that when I was 16, have a beautiful granddaughter, have a modest home in the most beautiful spot in the country that is not mortgaged to the hilt) and still allow myself to become SO DEPRESSED that I hate my life (at the time) and put all of the good things in jeopardy? When I am in the throes of this depression/self-hate/destruction mode......I honestly don't even CARE that I am jeopardizing every GIFT in my life that I should be thankful for. And now, on day 5 of the binge, I feel guilty as SH*T on top of it all because I've essentially 'wasted' the past 5 days, made Pam miserable ... and still don't know "how" to pull myself out of this. I am even ashamed to bring this up (even though it doesn't happen often) to my PCP or WLS surgeon.....because I don't want to dissapoint them .....yes, I get off on the fact that they "brag" about what a success I've been and how far I've come. Now, here I am feeling like a huge FAKER. I know that I've GOT to swallow my pride and Make myself talk to my DR,,,,,but I'm scared. I don't WANT to be on drugs for depression AGAIN (of course, I never wanted to take high blood pressure meds either) when this only hits me a few times a year. I'm sorry to ramble on.....but I truely don't know what else to do. Thanks for listening. Hugs, Kim

Sandy, We make chicken enchilladas and they are full of protein. I use regular flour tortillas but just eat half of one. I think it comes out to like 25 g of protein and they are delicious. So easy to make! They are high in carbs and fat but they are a wonderful treat every once in awhile! Gail 10-oz canned chicken (or use fresh) (we use canned for convenience) 1 large can enchillada sauce (save 1/4 cup for topping) 1 cup cheese (any blend you like) I use Kraft Four cheese blend. 1 can chillies 1 can olives Mix together above items and roll up into tortillas. Generally makes 4-6 10" flour tortillas. Place in baking dish and cover with more cheese and pour remaining sauce over the top. Bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes. That is all we put in ours but I am sure they would be delicious with other items in them as well such as corn, jalopenoes, blah, blah, blah.