d/l it again to update

I can't get in there! It keeps saying connection failed or something like that! Let me try again! Damn, i know how to do it!

In case some of you don't know how to get in on the chat....... To the left, the blue column, chat room is the first thing listed with red arrows!! click it & enter.....sign in. If it says the you need to download JAVA to chat.....DO IT NO EXCUSES!! It only takes a few secs to d/l JAVA. See u soon!!!

I am sorry. I did not mean to upset anyone. It is a quirk I found this group. It was in the wee hours. Then, I read posts for about two weeks before I even joined. I was completely unaware this was a private post and I did not know there was a problem with me posting. I am sitting here in the depths of depression. Yes, I know the doctor in Russellville told me there is not a problem with the surgery in July, but I am afraid I will gain another 50 pounds before I have it. I don't know what it is, but I am eating everything!! There is frozen cookie dough in the house--the kind schools sell. I could not stay out of it. I thought getting it cooked would help, but now I cannot stay out of the cookies. Then, cheese dip. I just have been eating that like crazy. Things I normally try not to eat. A couple of you have asked for a picture of me. At this moment, I just cannot provide one. If you have questions, email me I will be glad to answer them. I just cannot have my identity known now; mostly religious reasons preclude have gastric bypass. I also have a lot of friends and this is so hard for me. It sounds stupid but I guess I just don't want friends to know I have resorted to surgery.