Pathetic

I'm so pathetic, just absolutely pathetic. I'm sitting here crying over the news that my favorite place in Mississippi is gone. I've been on the internet since 730 this morning trying to find news on Beauvoir, Jefferson Davis' home in Biloxi. I've seen pictures of dead people, read an article of a woman who was at work when Katrina hit, got home and found her baby and husband drowned and nothing made me cry until I found out that Beauvoir is demolished. What in the hell is wrong with me. Things are terrible in MS and LA and I'm crying over a museum. Had a lot of good memories from that place and I always hoped I'd be able to build a home that was similar to Beauvoir. I used to go 2-3 times a year and just hang out on the grounds with my friend, pretending I was a southern belle. I could walk along the grounds and imagine horses, riders and buggies coming up the drive to visit and have a mint julep. I had my picture taken on the beautiful curving front staircase. The tomb of the unknown Confederate soldier was there. Argh! I'm so upset. I was going to go visit again last month, but was unable to go because the friends Jerry and I were gonna go with had a drowning death in their family. Now I'll never see it again. Homes can be rebuilt, but this was an historical site. How can they rebuild something like that? Oh man, I guess I'll go to bed and feel sorry for myself. I'm tired anyway. Maybe that's why it'****ting me harder than it should. I have a wedding to go to this evening. I hope I feel better by then. Gisela but still

((((((((((((((((Big Hug Gisela))))))))))))))) It's ok to mourn for a loss. I felt the same way when I saw the pictures of the Casinos destroyed in Biloxi. And I thought, "my God Kim, how shallow are you??? Peoples LIVES have been destroyed and taken." But it's like it wasn't real until I saw somewhere that I enjoyed going destroyed, ya know? I'm thinking about you girl and sending you some good thoughts Kim