Bad Habits...

OK -- No more denying that the bad habits are slipping back up on me (can't deny it when my scale is screaming at me that I need to get a grip!) I am now up 6 pounds from my lowest weight (2 of which have reappeared after this past weekend -- how in the hell can you gain 2 lbs. in 2 days!?!) I went and rented a storage unit this weekend -- and because of the heat and my brother being at the house, I decided I would move boxes after he left for his fishing tournament and it cooled down a bit -- so I headed to the mall to hit some great sales! Since it was his birthday -- I splurged and bought him a $90 pair of shoes on sale for $25 (tax included) and a t-shirt which reads "You have the right to remain silent, anything you say will be misquoted and then used against you!" (How befitting!) While shopping, I stopped off at Chick-fil-A and got a chicken strip combo. I figured the chicken was a great low calorie/carb choice! But I wound up eating all of the fricking waffle fries instead and only 1 chicken strip! Ok -- so I screwed up! I should have just gotten the chicken! Then yesterday, since Buddy was in a good mood that I "remembered" his birthday -- I splurged and bought pizza (a stuffed crust for him - and he mowed the backyard for me for doing so -- so I can't complain about that trade off because of the heat) and a thin crust for me (so I didn't gag on the crust). Typically I only eat the toppings off the pizza, but not yesterday -- I actually ate the whole pizza minus the crust!!! I didn't do it at one sitting -- I kept going back every hour or so for another slice until it was gone! I've got boxes packed all over the house and need to move them into storage - but this damned heat has me absolutely drained (or is it my crappy food choices -- I've not made up my mind about that one yet). I did resolve a few issues with my brother -- and am pawning off about 18 cases of books on him (thankfully so too -- I sure wasn't looking forward to moving them -- and they're now obsolete [not to mention, no resale bookstore, charity, library, etc. wants them!) So how'd I polish off an otherwise crappy food choice weekend you ask?!? How about a nice double shot glass of wine!! Oh yeah -- the calories in that one alone make a coke look like a diet soda! So why the hell am I surprised the scale is up 2 lbs!? It's not like I didn't know I couldn't have what I ate -- but did it anyway! Now it's back to being a good girl -- salads for lunch -- high protein for dinner -- and back to those nasty supplements! CRAP -- why can't we all just be born with a fast metabolism instead of so damned smart and good-looking!?

Hey Honey! I'm having a reality check about the old habits myself. I've been stuck for 12 weeks now and can't seem to make the scales budge below 143 for anything! Then yesterday, I layed in the pool ate doritos and drank a six pack (wonder why I gained 2 pounds ). But sometimes, I have to give myself permission to fall off the wagon and be a 'bad girl'.....after all I'm not perfect !! Pick yourself and start over today Girl. YOU are a success. You KNOW what to do......just do it. Kim

I went through the same thing you are going through when I was almost a year post-op. I posted to the main board and was told to log my consumption for a week (I used www.fitday.com - it's free). My caloric intake was between 900-1100 calories a day. I followed that up with a bit of research and found out that I actually wasn't consuming enough calories per day (shocker - http://www.weight-loss-i.com/calorie-needs-to-lose-weight.htm)! I upped my calories and initially gained a couple of pounds -- but within 2-3 weeks, the scale dropped again about 4 lbs. It took me 15 months to reach goal (-142 lbs. -- I had hoped to make it by my 1 year mark, but didn't) - so hang tough! I don't know if your situation is the same as mine -- but you might read the link above and log your consumption. If nothing else, it will remind you of your food choices each week and show you what you did on weeks that you were successful and weeks that you weren't. Eventually, a pattern will develop. Best wishes -- and thanks for the support! Much love ~ T.

Dear Mom: I tried to reply to your email last night -- but my computer locked up (it's been doing that a lot here lately and it's driving me nuts!) When I finally got rebooted, I'm sorry to say that I forgot where I was until I saw your reply this morning! I hope you are feeling better and am glad to hear you are being so pampered! I agree with Dad and my brother -- stay home! You deserve to rest and recoup -- work will still be there when you are back to 100% to return. Take care of you -- don't worry about Lexi -- she too will be there when you're back up to snuff! I love you so much and appreciate all you do -- if I can do anything for you - you know I'm there! Your loving daughter, Perry