I suck...

Hey guys -- I'm sorry I've been out of the loop here lately. Seems as if life and packing have taken over my time and I have little to spare for much else. The last I checked in I was in a whiney mood and I hate when I get that way -- it's easier for me to just withdraw than to wallow in my self pity and bring everyone else down. Not too much has changed -- I'm still moving, still not speaking with my older brother (whom I live with - although that will be changing very soon), still waiting to hear from Colorado about a job I applied for and am hopeful to get an opportunity to interview for, etc. I finally got everything squared away with school and am registered for classes next term (big worry off my shoulders!) I've been giggling at some of the crap I've found as I've been packing -- **** I have no idea why in the hell I saved -- it's just junk!!! Old love letters from boyfriends long gone -- pictures that I thought have been tossed a long time ago -- clothes I had that I never wore (even when I was fat and they fit) -- just crap! I've put together several bags of stuff that I've donated to different charities (clothes to the local church, books and whatnots to the local Faith Rescue Mission, etc.) - now if I can only get myself to "downgrade" the rest of it (what the hell do I need with 6 different SETS of tableware?) I've got boxes in damned near every room of the house! I saw a commercial on the television at Bill's house (I don'****ch TV) about moving pods (www.pods.com) and I'll be damned if they don't service this area -- which is a shame!! It looks like a great deal! Keep your fingers crossed that Colorado calls before I get the truck loaded! I'd hate to rent a truck to move everything into storage for a week only to have to rent another truck to load it again to move across country! I'd rather move it ONCE and be done with it! Maybe I should just sale everything and start from scratch once I figure out where I'm going -- but then again -- I wouldn't get what my stuff is worth and I'd have to pay for new stuff over there -- can't win for losing huh? If I run across anything fun and small enough to ship -- I'll let you guys know -- you all might giggle at some of this stuff I have around here! Love you guys -- and ya'll let me know when one of you gets sick again -- damnit -- I didn't even have a clue ------ because I SUCK!

Hi Ya Nil! Seems we all are trying to find a new life. I know my current one sucks big time! Sending positive thoughts your way, believe in yourself and you will get that job! Im on pins and needles myself, waiting to hear if I got the job in B'ham I applied for last week. Interview went well, and had to go sign a release of information today,so they can check out my rap sheet I hate to disappoint them but Im afraid they wont find anything illegal on me. I have not acted on my frustrations, physically, just yet but if I dont get away from where I am right now, who knows what could happen. I also want to go back to school, so that will be the next thing I look into once I know I have this job, which I hope is tomorrow. Im sooooooooooooooo ready to turn in my notice!!! We should get together and have one big yard sale. I bet I have just as much junk as you do... I hate to throw away. I am a pack rat and I got it from my grandmother, who NEVER threw anything away. I have a storage building in my backyard, filled to the rim with clutter! I am off this week so I started going through junk in the house, and hope to get to the storage building by the weekend. I try to convince myself, they are "memories". I know why I cant throw away, now I have to overcome that and just do it. Best of luck on your move. I dont envy that at all, holding good thoughts you will get the interview and job!!! Pop in when ya can, we miss ya! Love, Sandy

If you really want to have a collective yard sale -- I'll call the colliseum today just so there'll be enough space! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you to get that job! I can certainly relate to wanting out of a situation so bad since I scratch my head in wonder every day I walk into work how I got myself into such a situation! I really hate my current job and my micromanaging boss! I'm again wishing my life away -- hoping the courts will call soon (the deadline for submission is the 19th - so hopefully I'll hear something soon after that). As I said -- it'll be nice to only have to pack a truck ONCE! I just hope I'm the most qualified applicant (or at least one of the top 3 to grant me an interview). Let us know if you get the job -- and let me know when you want to have that yard sale! Love ya girl!

I've seen those pods. They do seem like a dream come true! I think we are all dealing with the "too much stuff syndrome." I am trying to clear out stuff all the time, and I don't often get any new stuff, but it still seems to accumulate. I am so excited about getting approved for WLS. I am hoping it will improve my health enough where I can really and truly get busy with this clearing out of stuff. I love to study feng shui and one of the main things is GET RID OF CLUTTER. I'm trying. It's always nice to add good clutter though. Beth G sent me some awesome shells and beautiful polished stones this week and it just thrilled me to no end. (Thanks Beth!) I always think shells and stones contribute to good chi. I think a whole new wardrobe in size 12 would contribute to good chi around here too. It won't be long now. Every time I move, I say I'm going to throw everything away and buy new stuff when I get there, but I always seem to schlep everything around with me. Although I did leave a lot of stuff in my house in Florida. Since most of my stuff comes from yard sales and thrift stores, if I sold all my stuff for $100 and then took $100 and bought new stuff, I might actually come out ahead. Enjoy your clearing out of stuff. There is such a RELEASE in giving things away. By the way, we don't think you suck. We think you're awesome! Love you, Joni

Girl -- I have so much "clutter" it's not even funny! I got rid of a bunch of stuff when I moved here over 3 years ago -- and I still have stuff in boxes that I never unpacked in the storage room in the guest house. Since the roof leaks out there, I really need to repack boxes and put together another toss it pile from my old crap! I'm hemming/hawing about selling my darkroom and equipment -- I don't use it anymore, but loved it when I did. Seems as if digital is so much easier to fool with and instant gratification with an immediate image. Although nothing beats the quality of a great black/white glossy! Maybe I should give that to my old boss - she's into photography (black/white to boot). It's expensive, but I'd never get what I've got into it back out. If I run into some size 12's in my continued closet thinning -- I'll set them aside for you! I wish I would have thought about it before I donated all of those clothes - the transistion is going to be quick and it would have saved you lots of $$! I'm thrilled with your news -- keep us up to date on how things progress from here! If you need anything, I'm here for you honey! Much love ~

Hey Traci, Love, that's what we've been trying to do! LOL...but it does require you checking the board occasionally... I'm just teasing you hon! We do love you! Talking about too much stuff...right after school got out this year, I decided that it was time to start weeding out some of the stuff here. When Mike and I moved in together 4 1/2 years ago, we both had places of our own so we put two households worth of "stuff" together. A LOT of my stuff I let go when I sold my trailer...I sold it partially furnished...and then threw a lot of stuff away before moving. You never realize really just how much stuff you have until you move. Because of the work that we're getting ready to have done here at the house, there's too much stuff and part of it needs to go. So I've been working on trying to simplify our lives. It started in the kitchen where I took out every plastic bowl and lid that I have...matched them up...and threw out all the extras, plus all the little decorator tins that I was keeping for "just in case" things at Christmas. I had used most of them last year when I baked goodies for family. THe process has moved through the kitchen cabinets, junk drawers, and as I've mentioned before now its in the computer room...I think I'm about to start in my closet too...it is out of control and I probably wear about 20 things in it regularly. Anyway...in a rambling mood...hope everyone has a great day! I'm going to paint some samples on my walls where I can make a decision about color...I'm leaning toward Urban Putty from Sherwin Williams with an extra white trim. Love, Becky

My baby brother and sister-in-law are about to "inherit" a bunch of stuff! I spoke with Steph about some of the extras I have around here and what she needs -- so needless to say, some of it is "spoken" for. I've been collecting Christmas ornaments for the past 7 years (which is really funny since I haven't put up a tree since 1990) and have convinced her to let me pawn that stuff off on her since she does go all out during the holidays. I do have a collection of Swarovski crystal ornaments (2 of each year from 1995 til the present) which is worth over $3K. She's excited about getting her hands on those and the Lenox ornaments that will decorate an expensively pretty tree! I didn't make it to the Montgomery dinner last night -- even if I had wanted to, my boss kept me at wor****il 9:40 last night finishing up some loan closing documents for some clients that are flying back out to Phoenix this morning. I would have really been kicking and screaming had you been able to make it down! Raising a toast to you at clearing out "junk" -- wishing you the best of luck on that endeavor since you can quit anytime you get sick of weeding! Love ya woman -- and thanks for the IM yesterday. I really need to get "in touch" with my roots here! I posted on Sunday (my 2 year anniversary) on the new WLS Grads board - but with the "Nil Carborundum" name change -- no one knows me! Let me know when you're going to a function -- I would love to meet you! T.

Damn! I saw the title and thought this was gonna be x-rated. What a disappointment Sorry really OT but there's a video on the tv of Ronnie Milsap's song "stranger in my house". I didn't know they had videos back then! haha. Anyway, I've been reading your posts and I'm sorry I haven't replied. I have 6 drs appts this week on top of working midnights and I just haven't had time to reply. Really don't have time right now, either, but I wanted you to know I was thinking of you. Love you and miss you, G