Hoping for surgery in the coming week.

Tomorrow, I get the results of my most recent blood count. I am feeling more bloodier! I'm not as tired, so that's a good sign. Every once in a while, I close my eyes and I can se me, you know, before I gained all this weight, I can see me and I get a glimspe of who I will become, that person that I thought was gone forever. No more being the fattest person in the room, no more having ignorant people stare at me with contempt, and no more of the other things that go with being morbidly obese. I can't wait. The first size that I drop will put me back into my jeans, the ones that I wore for only one month before I gained out of them. I don't think that I will have to buy clothes during this entire process. I have from 9 to 2X in pants. I actually have many 5x's and larger. My cousin told me that she asked my sister, this was when I weighed over 500 pounds, how she bought clothes for me, and my sister said, I order the largest they have and when we find something that fits her, we buy as many as we can. Now, I didn't know that, but that's how they did it.

I pray all is well and that everything works in your favor. I can so relate to the day dreaming about being your old self. I did it for years. I'll keep you in my prayers.