Going Backwards...Scaring Me Big Time

Okay, my surgery was in September 2004. I've only lost 100 pounds, and it's my fault. After breaking my foot, I became lazy, and after 6 months, I just wasn't up to speed. I haven't recovered since. I feel great, better than I did years ago when I was this weight. I can eat anything now, though I still fall into suger comas (after eating a McDonald Mcflurrie). I keep telling my husband to stop bringing in the cookies, but he does it anyway, and sometimes leaves them on the kitchen counter. He doesn't know any other way to love me, and really isn't interested in putting the effort out to learn. Food was easy to please me. Now I realize it was easy for him to please me with, too. I'm not going to mention the martini's with three olives. I have one a day - almost every day. It's become a bit of a stress reliever, as I am working very hard in a non-profit organization. And now, to make matters worse, I'm noticing that my stomach which was flattening out and hanging, is still hanging, but it's bulging a bit. And its' ******g me off. On Monday, I'm running out, getting a container of whey protein, and am hitting the heavy protein intake...hard. I'm ordering my crunch bars, and my tenant is moving out at the end of the month, so I'm going to be using the Tae Bo tapes. I still think it's okay, though. I'm glad I didn't lose too much more than I did. I think this will allow me to lose weight and maybe tighten the skin. Just wanted to confess and maybe find some people who want to work with me as I go back to what is good for me. Tayah