i just hit the bottom

hello my name is eddy mogollon im from venezuela i just wanna share and express my feelings, im totally depressed i think i dont have willing to do anything.. i cant stop eating and eating my life is going down so fast that i cant sit and watch it.. im 19 and i dont have a girlfriend and i dont have somebody nexto to me.. im alone.. with my fatness. i need help.. i just hit the bottom i wanna lose weight but i cant i had tried everything every diet on earth im crying right know. u dont know how i feel.. i think i had no life left.i need some to speak about it.. it started since i was like 14 i started to gain weight considerably fast. its been 5 years of. total sadness.. my life was always a nightmare i grew up listening to jokes about me.. and listening to girls rejecting me.. and all goes down to 1 conclusion.. because im fat. i dont wanna be it anymore. but for a reason i cant stop eating i need suport, someone to trust.

Please get help, hun!!!! I've been where you are and it's hell!! You do not have to be a prisoner in a fat body!!

I know where you're coming from, honey. I've been overweight for nearly half of my life. Lately, I can't stop eating, especially late at night. Now I can't control the portions either. I'm in the process of being considered for lap band surgery. That's my only alternative, as I just can't seem to control my eating now. I know it's not good for me. I look hideous in clothes, I have kids make fun of me sometimes, and I've been turned down for jobs because of the way I look. I get real depressed a lot. But I got my family behind me, either way. Fat or skinny. They still love me for me. I'm sure your family must feel the same. Don't have a family? You can be a part of mine. I've always struggled with trying to lose weight. Sometimes I did, and then turned around and gained it back. I have not had a job in nearly two years. I go out on interviews and try to dress professionally, but I can feel it when they "stare" at me. That's another reason for trying to have this surgery. I just about gave up all hope. I figured, if I'm LUCKY, maybe I have another 15-20 years left. But then my other doctors started telling me, this is wrong with you, that's wrong with you, if you don't do something about it, you're gonna have complications and your life will be jeopardized. My mom was extremely overweight and she died from complications due to it. I don't want to go out that way. Think about it. Wouldn't you like to stick around just a little bit longer? (SMILE) I don't have a special "someone" in my life, but heck, who needs it? I have a few select friends and my family, and my doctors, who cares? We can be friends and I'll do my best to support you.

Hi Eddy, I'm sorry that you feel this way but I understand because I have been there. I have also been overweight for most of my life and I am 42 years old so I understand the jokes, the rejection from the opposite sex and trying every diet in the book. The only thing I can tell you is that if you feel that surgery is your only option then go for it . Educate yourself about the procedure and post operative care. Because our digestive systems have been changed we still have to deal with mental struggles that may affect our eating habits so keep this in mind. If they have any type of support groups in Venezuela try to tap into them because the people there can be very encouraging and they can help you before and after surgery. I wish you all the best and I hope you are able to have the surgery since it sounds like this is what you really want. Take care of yourself and e-mail me anytime you need to talk to someone . Prycey Lady RNY 2/2/05

Hi, I see your still in the process of learning about getting WLS? How is that going? I used to eat when I got stressed and still do even after having WLS. Many of us suffer and deal with eating problems. You need to talk and get it out in the open. If you can't talk here then find a friend. Have you tried the main forum board? They are all wonderful people who will listen also. I'm here also if you wish to talk be email. Hugs Donna 338/154

how many times can we all say "been there and done it!?" . . I was 8 year old when I was put on my first diet . . . I'm 53 now. 3 years post op and feeling wonderful! WLS was the best thing I ever did for myself. Eddy, you've come to the right spot for support and friendship. Good luck!