What is wrong with me??!!??
Hi Everyone,
First time posting in this forum. I'm not really sure what is going on with me, but I'm really hoping someone can give me some guidance. I have this wonderful tool and recently I'm not using it the way I should. I'm actually abusing it and it makes me sad and mad and guilty and a whole gambit of emotions. Hence the emotional eating?? I just seem to binge lately. I'm feeling very low and sad and depressed and not sure why. I'm healthier than I have been in years, but I'm just so sad all the time. Lately I just seem to eat and eat and eat and of course then feel horrible and guilty. I'm stalled and have been for a couple of months. I know I'm not making the right food choices and just can't seem to get on track. What the heck is wrong with me?? I'm failing yet again and I hate myself for it!!!!
Thank you all for letting me vent.
First time posting in this forum. I'm not really sure what is going on with me, but I'm really hoping someone can give me some guidance. I have this wonderful tool and recently I'm not using it the way I should. I'm actually abusing it and it makes me sad and mad and guilty and a whole gambit of emotions. Hence the emotional eating?? I just seem to binge lately. I'm feeling very low and sad and depressed and not sure why. I'm healthier than I have been in years, but I'm just so sad all the time. Lately I just seem to eat and eat and eat and of course then feel horrible and guilty. I'm stalled and have been for a couple of months. I know I'm not making the right food choices and just can't seem to get on track. What the heck is wrong with me?? I'm failing yet again and I hate myself for it!!!!
Thank you all for letting me vent.
Band 7/13/08-419.5 lbs VSG 9/3/09-346 lbs DS 3/7/11 - 315 lbs CW: 197
I've been thinking alot about this the past week. I recorded a made for tv movie "When love is not enough'. It was the story of Lois and Bill Wilson. It was Bill who wrote the Alcoholics Anonymous book and Lois actually started al-anon.
I know I'm a compulsive eater and that I don't view food the way alot of people do. I have an unual attachment to it. Since the surgery I have to grasp with living the rest of my life without my bestfriend but yet my worst enemy.
I really think the reason we fall into the eating to excess is...'avoidance'. We sometimes eat to provide a problem, like not losing weight or gaining weight . This way our focus goes from the real issues in our lives to the weight game. Really we gain weight because of other parts of our lives that we feel are unmanageable so to avoid the pain we create this 'issue'.
Please don't think I'm telling you that you are like this. You may not be. Something else that has been on my mind is the desire to find out who I really am. What I really like or how I want my life to be. I found myself just doing...because it was an expaectation from someone else and not even wondering if it was really what I wanted or needed.
I work afternoons and before I went to work today I actually cracked open my overeater's anonymous book that I havent even looked at for about 17 years. It's time for some real self discovery and I'm hoping this potential cloud of horrible depression doesn't hang around too long.
Feel free to send me a private message if you ever want to chat about your feelings more. Best of luck to you.
(hugs)
I know I'm a compulsive eater and that I don't view food the way alot of people do. I have an unual attachment to it. Since the surgery I have to grasp with living the rest of my life without my bestfriend but yet my worst enemy.
I really think the reason we fall into the eating to excess is...'avoidance'. We sometimes eat to provide a problem, like not losing weight or gaining weight . This way our focus goes from the real issues in our lives to the weight game. Really we gain weight because of other parts of our lives that we feel are unmanageable so to avoid the pain we create this 'issue'.
Please don't think I'm telling you that you are like this. You may not be. Something else that has been on my mind is the desire to find out who I really am. What I really like or how I want my life to be. I found myself just doing...because it was an expaectation from someone else and not even wondering if it was really what I wanted or needed.
I work afternoons and before I went to work today I actually cracked open my overeater's anonymous book that I havent even looked at for about 17 years. It's time for some real self discovery and I'm hoping this potential cloud of horrible depression doesn't hang around too long.
Feel free to send me a private message if you ever want to chat about your feelings more. Best of luck to you.
(hugs)
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