food addiction sucks!
I can't stop obssessing about food. It's been really bad since November 09 and I've gained 15 lbs since then. I no longer get sick from certain foods, so now I eat everything in sight. It's like I lost my self control, (what little I had). I've never reached my goal of 150 since surgery 10/31/06, but I did get down to 200.
Addiction runs in the family, mine happens to be food. I joined the brand new and only food support group in my community that started in Febraury. Unfortunately, I am the only WLS person in there. I go, listen and speak, but I don't relate to any of the anorexics, bulimics or over exercisers. I'm part of another support group for a different topic and I can totally relate.
I joined the gym again March 1st after 2 years of not going. I go 4-6 times a week, and try to focus on eating right instead of eating everything in sight, but it's not working. I feel lost, frustrated, down on myself.
I don't use this site as much as I should, but I'm glad it's here and I can use it to post about were my head is right now.
food addiction sucks!
Last year I worked with the Beck's Diet Solution and lost 50 lbs for the first time since my revision. I was able to stay on it for over 4 months before I started to stray. However, I haven't regained any weight.
One of the first things I learned from Beck's is that I don't eat automatically. I now know that I choose to eat both my good food and my addictive food. I can choose not to eat the addictive food. I can start to realize that there is time between the time that I am tempted to eat addicted food and not eating it.
Another thing that I learned is that I don't eat everything in site. I'm sure that you'll agree that you don't eat everything. I bet that you don't gp crazy eating everthing around such as vegetables at night or protein at any time of the day.
You can eventually learn to control your environment. You wouldn't expect an alcoholic to function properly with bottles of booze tiempting him. Similarly, you shouldn't have junk food readily available. All of this info is learned from the Beck's Diet Solution.
I looked into the Beck's diet, it sounds interesting. I think I'll see if I can find it at the library first before buying it.
Note that Dr Beck has recently come out with a new book that combines a nutritional diet along with the Beck's Diet Solution. I think that will probably be more helpful for people who are not involved with WLS. Our WLS diets as assigned by our nutritionists work fine. You can look at the Diet and Nutrition Forum for additional info. If you are concerned with any given surgery, you can question people on that surgery's forum. Some of us are also on specialized diets due to medical conditions.
As I've said before, if you do go to buy the book, the softcover workbook edition should work best for post-ops.
Note that there is a Becks Group. Simply look up Groups and search for Becks ( no apostrophe).
I'm sorry if my response sounds flat, but I've been ill and don't want to stay online. But I do want you to get the info asap. Bob
For me, I know that when I am not engaged in an activity - a physical or mental one (watching TV doesn't count - junkfood for the brain) - that is when I have issues with cravings. Ever notice how many commercials for fast food are on TV - WHEN you are DIETING? I actually asked a silly question: Do they make Diet TV? Sorry, even my DVR cannot save me from the temptations!
We all have battled or we wouldn't be on here. What I also had to deal with (I don't have a surgery date, yet) was "Can I do this? Have I addressed MY inner demons?"
I have been on more than a handful of diets, some worked to a degree, but at the mature age of 42 (I act my shoesize, not my age...) I have finally said, "I am ready". Fifteen people around me have had Gastric Bypass -- I have seen The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly. I want to be The Good. Doesn't everyone? I question that question.
There usually is a LONG process to go through BEFORE any good surgeon will work on you. One of my friends (who is a SERIOUS Food Addict) worked for the hopital who performed his surgery. He got bumped to the head of the line - without LEARNING how to use this TOOL. He didn't learn how to eat correctly. Dealing with WHY we eat is (in my opinion) more important than the surgery.
Have you considered any types of counseling? There are antidepresents that help with the cravings. I think you need to learn why you eat, then learn how to eat. I am in the same boat. It isn't going to be easy, but with help, YOU CAN MAKE IT.
You say you are the only one in your group that has had surgery -- have you looked for other WLS groups to ADD to your support? You made a GREAT FIRST STEP, you have said what is troubling you, so high five to you!
Hang in there!
B : )~
I live in a small town (pop 7000) with few "big city" services. Unfortunetly I'd have to drive at least 3 hours one way to the nearest big city in another state to get food counseling services for WLS, and it wouldn't be with the Dr, I did have my surgery with. As it was, I had surgery 7 hours away from home, and did all my pre-op appts etc over a three month period.
I do counseling, I've been taking antidepresents for 14 yrs now. I never thought this journey was going to be easy. I'd love to join other WLS groups, but there are ZERO in my area so I go to what is available.
So for now I've started working on the "why I eat" and w/ some self motivation I'll get there eventually.