Just a food addict checking in
I'm Bob and I'm addicted to sugar and white flour. I'm also a junk food junkie. Today I'm giving in to my addiction, but I'm not desparate nor helpless. I have the tools to recover but I know I have to use them. I was abstinate this year from Feb through Mid May. And, once I got a couple of days of abstinence under my belt, it actually became easy.
I remember the freedom I had of not even being tempted to cheat. I miss that. I avoided problem foods and I kept a food journal. I watched my calories. I know that prayer plays an integral part of my recovery. Oh, I'm manic- depressive and I think about my situation way too much.
The aids that helped me while I was abstinate are using the Beck's Diet Solution by Dr Judith Beck and Food Addiction--The Body Knows by Kay Sheppard. I ran into problems once I finished the 42 day program by Dr Beck and didn't know where to go from there. I think most people would just continue to apply her exercise. But, I really need to be in some sort of program.
I'm floundering now but that's how I am with most aspects of my life. It's part of the reason that I've been collecting an occupational disability since July, 1992 since I can't prioritize work or tasks. I was a caseworker in a small fed agency--I had 125 cases on my desk while everyone else in the office had about 20 I couldn't decide what to do first so I didn't do anything. I'm the same way with dieting--I can't decide which principle to apply.
By the way, There's a behavioral therapist among us who posts on the Main Forum who does a weekly chat on the Beck Diet Solution. I wouldn't try to get online help from her on an individual basis, but I think you may want to check out her chat sessions. Since I can't look up her name without losing this post, I think her name is Nicole L or Nicole N and she's in Central Pa. Again, I wouldn't bother her on an individual basis but would look into the Monday Night chat.
I remember the freedom I had of not even being tempted to cheat. I miss that. I avoided problem foods and I kept a food journal. I watched my calories. I know that prayer plays an integral part of my recovery. Oh, I'm manic- depressive and I think about my situation way too much.
The aids that helped me while I was abstinate are using the Beck's Diet Solution by Dr Judith Beck and Food Addiction--The Body Knows by Kay Sheppard. I ran into problems once I finished the 42 day program by Dr Beck and didn't know where to go from there. I think most people would just continue to apply her exercise. But, I really need to be in some sort of program.
I'm floundering now but that's how I am with most aspects of my life. It's part of the reason that I've been collecting an occupational disability since July, 1992 since I can't prioritize work or tasks. I was a caseworker in a small fed agency--I had 125 cases on my desk while everyone else in the office had about 20 I couldn't decide what to do first so I didn't do anything. I'm the same way with dieting--I can't decide which principle to apply.
By the way, There's a behavioral therapist among us who posts on the Main Forum who does a weekly chat on the Beck Diet Solution. I wouldn't try to get online help from her on an individual basis, but I think you may want to check out her chat sessions. Since I can't look up her name without losing this post, I think her name is Nicole L or Nicole N and she's in Central Pa. Again, I wouldn't bother her on an individual basis but would look into the Monday Night chat.
I have nothing against Overeaters Anonymous but it hasn't worked for me. I know they say it works if you work it, but I worked it and it didn't work. I was even a food sponsor and a step sponsor at various times. During 20 years of attending OA meetings I gained over 300 lbs net.
I must say that I had psychiatric problems that were not being addressed at the time. Part of the way during my attendance at OA I found out that I suffer from depression. However, due to the way it was treated at the time ( I woud get depressed, get talk therapy, and get better only to have the same cycle repeat itself about a year or so later). I found out about 10 years later that I am actually manic-depressive and now take meds for the mood changes as weell as for depression.
I know sometimes think about OA but it brings back negative feelings which I certainly don't need. Besides, my shrinks have told me ( I've had a few due to changes in ins or changes of shrinks covered by my HMO) that 12 step programs are successful only about 35% of the time. But, since there is no other program with a better record, that's where most people are sent for support. I know that Bill B didn't just come up with the 12 steps out of thin air. They are a monastic rule that was developed in a monastery in the 4th or 5th century and I can see how they would probably be very successful or even necessary in a community living situation. They just don't work for me.
I do get tremendous support online from the Men's Forum here on OH. I started coming to the Hunger and Food Troubles Forum because the people posting here have a narrow focus to their posts and responses. I don't have to worry about male/female problems. Like OA and some food and or diet sites, the emphasis here is on proper eating or, contradictorily, on problm eating. I'm glad to be part of the discussions here even though I don't check this forum as often as I should.
I must say that I had psychiatric problems that were not being addressed at the time. Part of the way during my attendance at OA I found out that I suffer from depression. However, due to the way it was treated at the time ( I woud get depressed, get talk therapy, and get better only to have the same cycle repeat itself about a year or so later). I found out about 10 years later that I am actually manic-depressive and now take meds for the mood changes as weell as for depression.
I know sometimes think about OA but it brings back negative feelings which I certainly don't need. Besides, my shrinks have told me ( I've had a few due to changes in ins or changes of shrinks covered by my HMO) that 12 step programs are successful only about 35% of the time. But, since there is no other program with a better record, that's where most people are sent for support. I know that Bill B didn't just come up with the 12 steps out of thin air. They are a monastic rule that was developed in a monastery in the 4th or 5th century and I can see how they would probably be very successful or even necessary in a community living situation. They just don't work for me.
I do get tremendous support online from the Men's Forum here on OH. I started coming to the Hunger and Food Troubles Forum because the people posting here have a narrow focus to their posts and responses. I don't have to worry about male/female problems. Like OA and some food and or diet sites, the emphasis here is on proper eating or, contradictorily, on problm eating. I'm glad to be part of the discussions here even though I don't check this forum as often as I should.
Hi Bob,
I'm also addicted to white flour and sugar. Like you, I deal with my addiction on a daily basis. My tools are food journaling, preparation, and PRAYER.
Thanks for the advice on the behavioral therapist. I will look for her during a chat session tomorrow night.
Best of luck to you!
I'm also addicted to white flour and sugar. Like you, I deal with my addiction on a daily basis. My tools are food journaling, preparation, and PRAYER.
Thanks for the advice on the behavioral therapist. I will look for her during a chat session tomorrow night.
Best of luck to you!
Life is good!
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