I feel so stupid!

So I will go to the store- even the convience store or gas station or drug store and I will have my list and know what I need to buy. Sometimes I will buy something off the list, something I know I can't have, know will make me sick, know will do no good to me. But I waste my money on it anyways. And not only do I waste my money on it, I try to eat it. I know we all are addicted to food hence how we got into this situation, but i realized the other day that this is not normal... maybe its my first realization that i am morbidly obese and i realize this has been the best decision of my life, but how do i stop making these impulse buying? I bought oreo cakesters cookies- a 3 pack, i bite one chewed it up tried to swallow it and then threw it out the window. It didn't make me sick- but it wasn't that good first of all, and second of all i waste like $1.50 on this stupid thing! My fiance ended up eating the rest of the package, but still. Why do I waste my money? How do I stop this? HELP! Does anyone else do this? I feel so stupid!

I think of it this way... I am a food addict and just like an alcoholic or other drug user, I am clean today. When I do the actions that you described it is like I have to have my fix. I do not keep trigger foods in the house, at least not usually, sometimes it out of my control because of family but for the most part I can.
I live out in the country so it takes me about 10 minutes to get to a store luckily, so by the time that I can give into my craving it has usually subsided.
Just like yesterday...I was craving a Krispy Creme glazed dough-nut. I have not had one in years. I was fighting with myself trying to talk myself out of it and finally the urge passed. The funny part is I KNOW if I took 1 bite it would cause me to dump  and it would not taste good. I have found that with alot of foods, I really want one and and then I take a bite and it does not taste near as good as I thought it would. I always try to remember PROTEIN FIRST.
If I am in the car I take my water and homemade beef jerky with me so that if we do stop, I do not have to go buy anything.
If you want to chat further you can email me at [email protected]
Shelly

i somewhere down the road have convinced myself that i don't like dough-nuts... i do, but if I'm in a dough-nut shop i can convince myself that i don't like them therefore don't want one. I realize I am an addict just like you said- like an alcoholic, or drug user.  But the thing is an alcoholic can not go into a bar- its impossible for me to not go into a store- even if i have food with me, its like oh that looks better....  I know it will probably come with time, its just very frustrating....  

 

so whats this you say about homemade beef jerky?  That sounds yummy!   

I understand COMPLETELY about going to the store...I have always said that if I could just never eat again it would be better, because if I  was an alcoholic I would just abstain from all alcohol, but with food it is entirely different. One thing that I do is make a list of the food I want. If it is not on my list I will not get it. This takes some discipline but in time it has gotten better. I am an impulse buyer, living out in the country has really helped too! LOL
If you PM me I will send you the recipe for the jerky. I use the dehydrator it is real easy, just rather time consuming.
I like the idea of convincing myself I do not like something. I think I will try that one.
Thanks,
Shelly