Sabatoging myself...

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have lost a total of 130 pounds, but have been stuck for like the last 2 months or maybe even more at 223. I am pretty sure besides it being a horrible plateau, it has been my doing. I hope I don't get flamed but I have been eating terrible, testing out sugar and eating stuff I shouldn't be. The calories pile up everyday before I know it. I can't eat huge meals, but small ones and then I snack all day. Has anybody else had trouble doing this? I don't know why I am ruining this once in a lifetime chance at getting this weight off for good. What is wrong with me? I could just cry, but stuck in these bad habits now. Would love to know if anyone can relate.

Hello! I can definitely relate. I try to remind myself I've been given this wonderful "tool" and that I'm not going to be given a second chance with it...It's just hard.. I started having a nibble here and there of a "no-no" food and now I have no problem eating whatever I want. I don't know if I am unconsciously sabotaging myself or have just found myself at a comfortable weight... I guess I've really forgot what it was like to be 300+ lbs. Then I tell myself I'm going to "detox" all the sugar/carbs outta my body on so and so date but I never do it.. But yeah like you I don't really know what to do with it... No flames, please.. lol Katrina

Take a look at the 5 Day Pouch Test: http://www.5daypouchtest.com/index.html as a way to get back on track and detox the carbs. Lots of people are doing it with great success. Betsy

Melinda and Katrina, I am just starting on this journey, but I certainly know a great deal about obsessive compulsive disorders. I am chosing the RNY instead of the lap-band because I know I might some day slip and start drinking frappes and undermine everything that I will be working so hard for. I spent years in therapy working on my "being my own worst enemy" behavior. Do you think you are a bit depressed? Do you think you would benefit a bit from some therapy? You have done amazing things. You are worthy of what you you have done. Do you think you are trying to undermine your success? I used to live one highway exit from an area where there were many fast food restaurants and a great grocery store. I never knew, until I drove past that exit, whether or not I was going to turn off and hit those spots. Someone was in charge, but it wasn't me! There is help available to deal with these head hungers. best regards, Jayne

I just wanted to applaud you for your honesty. I have been dealing with the same thing and I have been beating myself up for a while now, and I have been too scared to admit it to anyone. I am almost 7 months out now and have lost 90 lbs but ever since christmas I havent been able to stop eating sweets and grazing all day long. I'm doing the same things that got me this way in the first place. I have a problem and dont know what to do and how to stop.. I'm a little panicked and feel VERY out of control. Thank you for being someone brave enough to tell on yourself.. so that i could too, admit i need help.

I hear you, Amy. My name is Kathy,I had an RnY the 26th of Jan.2007. I lost around 100 pounds since then. Now , ive gained back about 10 pounds. Ive been eating the carbs, like grahm crackers, some candy, cookies. at certain times. I just feel so ashamed. Like ive just lost control. Ive such a fear of stretching out my pouch and deforming my stomach area. What to do? is the question. Im just at a point i dont know what to do. I feel so out of control. You are not alone, believe me. My husband and my mom say they can tell ive gained some weight. makes me feel so bad. Sincerely, Kathy

mee too. ive been at 166/167 for atleast 3 or 4 months... and yes yada yada yada people say our bodies have to adjust and all that stuff but im frustrated too... so ive been reading a lot from the people who have started and have done the 5day pouch test.... im on day 1 again... even though im having a rough time with it... its the best day 1 ive had so far... (tried it 3 times and failed miserably eating at the end of the day and then giving up) im going to try it and if i have to keep doing days 1 and 2 for the next 18 days in a row to break all my bad habits then thats what im going to do ... god knows i worked hard to get where i am... but if u think about it we all sabatoged our selves to get to being heavy... so i think its something within us.... but like i said this whole rny bypass thing is an adventure in strength... we were strong enough to get here.... and with the help of god and each other we can do it..... im an RN... i guess its the care giver in me but whatever u need im here for you... and feel free to pm me anytime or i can give u my phone number...just remember u are not alone...

 not that i am an expert on this but i have seen some folks on the recipe section of this site post some stall busting recipies that would maybe help also.