HELP ME, I'M TERRIFIED

Hi, Had my surgery in march 2005, was 374 lbs. Had gotten to 196lbs by end of June. All thru July and so far this month all I can think of is FOOD. Grazing all the time, finding out i can eat more than i was, and eating it. Post surgery i had severe constant nausea and am still suffering from it, not as bad this week, but have bad, good and terrilbe weeks of nausea. Even with the nausea i still want the food. I'm obsessing, constantly thinking of food. Have not been excersising because the nausea is so bad. I do take phenregan and zofran for the nausea, but don't seem to wk that well anymore. Doc did EVERY test imaginable and even exploratory surgery to try to find cause of nausea, to no avail. So now i have good and bad days w/ the nausea and am still grazing constantly and obsessing on food. Diagnosed bipolar at age 20 (now am 35), but been on meds and regulated do not think meds responsible for nausea. BUT my main concern is the food obsessing and eating and gaining wt is scaring me to death. Seeing counselor about this and she is great but i also need other support. i am new to this site and hope some of you can provide words of encouragement, similar stories or ideas to help. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH

I did not have nausea but I had a lot of pain, bad gas on my right side and I started taking Prilosec and it worked. Have you tried Prilosec at all? might give it a try. Donna

Donna, Thanks for the tip. I will ask the doc about that one. Lord knows we've tried everyting else. We are also adjusting some of my other meds to see if that will help. I swear, this has been a rough go, but I would do the surgery all over again, even with the problems I've had. The wt loss has been so good for me and my self esteem and my health in general (with the exception of the nausea). I hope you find some relief from your pain. I will be thinking of you. Keep in touch and let me know how you are doing. Again thank you sooo much for your response. It is truly a blessing to know that other people care and are will to share their experiences. Thanks, Shannon

I don't have the pain anymore, thanks to Prilosec but I do have an ED. It's called purging and not wanting to eat. I'm trying to stop it on my own and did really good for a few days but last night was throwing up and this morning I was throwing up with NOTHING on my stomach. NOT GOOD!!! Donna

Shannon, I"m only about 8 months out and am in the same boat you are. I can't seem to get it under control and am scared to death of failing at this after what we went through to have the surgery, etc. There must be a solution, as others seem to have weathered similar issues. Just hang in there and I"ll do the same. One day at a time, I guess. Good luck.

Terri, Thank you sooo much for your respnse. This is my 1st time on this site (or any bastric support sites for that matter). It is nice to know we are not alone in this battle. I'm trying hard to learn new coping skills to get thru hunger besides eating. Still worried about wt loss stopping and the few lbs I've gained back, but do seem to be doing better, Fri was 206 lbs, today 203. (lowest 3wks ago 195lbs). Hard not to obsess about it. I know it is only 10 to 5 lbs, but seems like 100. I know you understand. I guess we both need to just hang in there and try to find things to divert ourselves from eating or just plain constantly thinking about food. I'm with ya though, one day at a time. I'll be thinking about you, please keep in touch and let me know how things are going. And if you find the "magic" cure let me in on that too (ha ha). Thanks, Shannon