This morning I saw under 200 for the first time. 199.6 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lea, I know... it's horrible, and this is what I've been so worried about for the past month or so. Yes we did discuss what I'm eating, and I was completely honest with her about lack of appetite, and even when I have the times that I can sit down and eat 4 - 6 oz of chili at a single setting. We discussed my protein shakes, yogurt, my attempt at meat, my veggies, mashed potatoes ****asionally), sf drinks, sf popsicles, etc., etc., etc. She said that it is definitely not that I am eating too much that is causing the slow down of the weight loss, although I am not working out. She also stated that there are people that have the RNY surgery that never work out and still lose at a better rate than me. I told her that this was my biggest fear prior to the surgery too. I had this weight problem when I was only eating once per day. I have never been a grazer, or mood eater. As a matter of fact, depression caused me to stop eating all together. She told me that the surgery and teaching my body to eat properly, and eating 5 - 6 times per day, etc., should correct whatever was going on with me. Well, I guess something is just wrong with me!! This is very, very depressing!! She does not want me working out too vigorously because I am a cardiac patient, and I have not worked out since my heart attack in April, 2007. I am supposed to work out at a comfortable pace when I do start working out, and if I feel fatigued at all, or start getting winded, I am go bring myself back down, or just stop. I have been crying so much today that my eyes and head are hurting! I am angry, I am depressed and I don't know how to handle what I am going through right now!! No, I haven't taken any measurements at all. I thought about doing that when I learned about losing inches during a stall, but I had stalled for so long at that time, and was so depressed, I really didn't want to SEE my true measurements. Now I wish I had measured, maybe I would have something to look forward to. Nobody, not even my docs ever told me to take measurements. I learned about it on her (OH). Donna

I didn't have any major complications, just some minor issues...in the hospital I reacted to the pain meds and passed out when I stood up. A couple weeks after surgery I ended up in urgent care in pain, only to find out I was stopped up so to speak. I've had the mystery pains. Recently my blood sugars have been running low and I've had several scary low hypoglycemic episodes. And the low blood pressure which causes the vertigo. And I have numbness in my feet and lower legs due to in part a lack of padding on my derrier. Sounds worse than it is. I'm so much better off than I was before WLS.

It seems like all I do is new stuff...I have so much energy and can fit in small places now!

Still 230!!! Went to see doc from bariatric clinic today and she is just about as unhappy regarding my LACK of weight loss as I am. She actually seems a bit concerned over the fact that I have only lost 13 lbs since the last visit with her on June 23rd. She decided to draw my blood to see if there is anything going on with my blood that is slowing down the weight loss so severely. She's even double checking my thyroid numbers which were just checked like 4 weeks ago or so!!! She says that a slow down to an average of less than 2 lbs per week at this far out (3 months) is unheard of. So... I thought I was depressed about my stall before???? I was crying on the phone talking to my husband on my way home from the clinic!!! I hate my life right now, and yes... I'M FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF!!!