Daily Post--8/22/08

I see a monster. Literally. I guess I never realized how big I was. But then, I've never been skinny, so sometimes, I still feel big. It's crazy and exciting all at the same time.

Well, I am still over 100 lbs from my goal, but having lost 130+ lbs, I already look at older pics of me and feel mixed emotions. I am sad that I spent so long being that unhappy and unhealthy. I'm embarrassed that I allowed myself to get that way. And I'm also, on the other hand, proud that I have come this far and that the unhappy girl in those pictures is healing and becoming more confident. It's kind of a mixed bag for me! I never want to forget who I was... because I never want to be her again. And yet, I still have a lot of progress to make before I am the person (inside and out) that I want to become.

Hi Lea I am not in this challenge at this time but I had to respond to this question! I have been going through picture of my self from various family functions. I have to tellya I knew I wa a short large woman but, I do not think I really knew it! I know it does not make sence what I am saying. I was in denial as to how wide I was. I do believe I was one of those ppl that was as wide as I was tall! I am 5 ft tall So I was 5 ft wide to. Hey I was a 5x5..... From size 24 in jeans to a size 10, 12 today. I use to would not even wear jeans because they were so alrge I refused to buy them. I just wanted to share.

I haven't looked at any of my before pictures, I guess I don't want to deal with the issues that I know I should. One day, just not yet. Jules

I caqn't believe it was me. SOmetimes I think it still is.

I am still having a hard time processing the difference, but I feel so much better about myself now than I did then, I feel like I deserve more, and will not settle.... Vivienne

Often times it's still how I view myself now.  I can recognize the huge difference when I have pictures side by side.  Scary that I let myself be like that.

When I look at older pictures of myself, I can not believe I was that big.  I knew I was big but, not that big.  The difference is in old pictures, I am always hiding behind chairs, people or other things, now I am in front. No longer hiding