Daily Post--7/22/08

Do you feel as if you have a real sense of what you look like today? Do you still see yourself as heavy?

I definitely do not have a sense of what I look like today. But then again, I don't think I had a sense of what I looked like pre-op either. I think my self image is really warped. Pre-op, I hated the way I looked (don't we all), but I think it was to the extreme. Now when I see a pic of myself from that time, I do see a big woman, but I don't HATE her like I did back then. Now when I look in the mirror, I still see a heavy person. I know that I'm not heavy anymore, but now I also see my sagging skin and wrinkles. I really wish I could see myself as others see me, but I know I don't. It's a little easier in a picture than it is in the mirror, but I think it's still warped.

No, not at all! It is taking a long time for my mind to catch up with the physical changes!!

Absolutely I do. I can see little changes, like a bone that shows here or there, but I still judge distances to get through places as though my fanny was a great deal bigger! I believe this awareness of what I am really will come later.

No...I still see myself as heavy...I don't think that is going to go away...

I'm down 3 sizes and am thrilled. I know I'm smaller. So far so good. ---jan---

YES even though I am down 64 pounds I still feel heavy and I think its because I still have a large stomach

Yes I do still see myself as heavy...even before i gained back some of my original weight. No atter what I ALWAYS see that Heavy girl looking back at me.

I absolutely still see myself as heavy. I don't think it will be different for me until the extra skin is gone.

Heh... both? Sometimes I see myself as skinny(er), and sometimes I still see the same fat girl in the mirror. I guess it's the horomone ride, hmm?