Daily Posts--5/5 and 5/6

I'm only three pounds away from being at an "overweight" BMI as opposed to "obese" and I don't see a normal body yet. I've had two people in the last week ask me if I'm done losing weight and they were both shocked when I told them I had another 30 something pounds to go until goal and that I may even go lower than that. I don't see it yet. But, since I have a background working with people with anorexia and bulimia I understand about cognitive distortion and am content to wait it out until my eyes catch up with body. I've got a good exercise for those who are really troubled by this, because most of us, including me, still think we're a lot bigger than we are. Get a roll of drawing paper. School supply stores usually have it. Unroll it and draw what you believe is an accurate outline of your body. Then lay down and have someone trace your outline. You'll probably be blown away by how much smaller that outline is than the one you drew. If you don't care about having a permanent record, you can also do this with lipstick and a full length mirror, as long as you remember to stand the same distance from the mirror each time.

I'm down 100 pounds today , and I'm still looking for the thin person in the mirror. I see a more slender person than I used to, but I can't really see how I really look unless I see a photo of myself. Then I can tell the difference. (Isn't that weird?) But the mirror, no not yet.

Still looking for her!

Still waiting for that magic moment. STill buying clothes way too big. Not sure you can undo all those years of seeing fat very quickly..

I kept thinking I would finally see a "thin" person when I hit 100 lbs but I have hit that point and I still don't see that person. Sometimes I see someone who looks practically 1/2 her former size (which is not really the case) but never someone thin. I hope I will someday; I never have in my life.

I am down 100 pounds and I don't see a thin person in the mirror. I can definitely see the difference and I know I look and feel better but I definitely don't feel thin. I have had friends and co-workers ask me if I'm done losing and when I say I have another 35-40 pounds to lose they are shocked and say "there will be nothing left of you" of course I know that's not true. If I lose 35-40 pounds more that would put me right in the middle of where I should be for my height and weight. I'm not trying to be stick thin. I just want to get to a comfortable healthy weight that I can realistically maintain. I think because people have never seen me at a "normal" weight that anything less seems odd or weird to them!? Of course I've never seen me at my goal weight either so it will likely be very odd and weird for me too but I'm looking forward to it!!

I don't see her in a mirror - heck, I don't even see her in pictures yet and I'm 120 lbs down. When I do see her is when I'll be walking by a window and catch my reflection... so out of the corner of my eye it works Lori

I don't think I'll ever see "thin" - I see saggy skin. But I wear a size four pants, my size "A" pantyhose come up to my boobs (but then, they come down to my waist! LOL). My hip bones protrude. Anyway - I think the point that I'm trying to make is that intellectually, I am aware that I am smaller than many, but I don't think that emotionally, I will ever feel "thin".

Some days I see a thinner person and other days, I don't. Jules

I still don't see a thin person. Don't think I ever will.