Daily Post--4/28/08

I've reached my goal of 150 and have gained a few back since then - I didn't feel healthy-looking at 149, but feel great at 155 - so that is my maintenance goal. I didn't really do anything big for goal, but the rewards have come, for me, in my newfound health, happiness, and the wonderful energy I have every day. My boyfriend and I are playing hooky today and going to Disneyland - another small reward - something I never would have done pre-WLS.

I don't have anything planned. I'm really starting to think I've set my goal weight too high, based on how I look right now and what I need to lose to get to goal.

I am going on a shopping spree. I have not asked for anything for my birthday or christmases in preparation for this! YEAH! 36 pounds to go unless I change my goal weight!

My goal keeps changing. I started with my doc's goal of 160, decided I wanted to lose more. Then set it for 150, again too high. Now it's set for 140, but I'm getting near it and am thinking I may lower it again. BUT before I do, I need to celebrate reaching a goal - I haven't done that yet, not at 199 even. I'm not sure what I want to do, I'm 6lbs from this goal, so I have a little time to come up with something special for me. Plus I really need to pamper myself because I just found out I'm going to be a grandma for the first time. Now I'm feeling OLD!!!!

This time I was very conservative because I didn't meet my last 2 goals. I"m at 199.8 this morning, so I've met my challenge goal. I went out and spent $125 on clothes. I bought them a size smaller than I would have if I were at goal, goal, so'll shrink into them. I was at 198.6 earlier in the week and went a little nuts. It's like I'm testing my limits. This morning when I had gained a pound I was like YIKES. It could just be water...but I'm done testing...for now!

My final goal is to reach 140 and I have not thought abot what kind of celebration I will do when I reach that goal. I had some fun and celebrated loosing 100 pounds and my 1 year anniversary but had not taken the time out to plan something for when I reach my goal weight...these last 20 something pounds have definitely been the hardest to loose. But I will not give up! ) My goal for this challenge was to get to 155 (current weight 158.6) and I have unfortunately been losing and regaining the same 10 pounds since mid March..so hopefully my weight loss will pick back up this time around....

I'd just be happy to get past this stall. lol