Daily Post--2/8/08

Great topic... I think the hardest thing for me so far has been the head hunger. I don't think I have felt real hunger yet but the head hunger (which I associate with food addiction) has been horrid. I'm sure I'll face it the rest of my life. Just like being an ex-smoker. My mother always said she "still wanted to smoke" after 10 and 15 years. I'm sure it gets somewhat easier but I'm having to prepare myself that it may be a forever thing. It makes me a little sad.

The hardest thing I've faced in this journey is.... not letting the scale dictate the way the rest of my day goes. I weigh every morning (sometimes more often), and I'm obsessed with it. If I gain two pounds, I feel like everything I own is going to be too tight. I get crazy if I gain three! I have maintained a weight between 149 and 158 for the past seven months. My original goal was 150, but I feel better at 155. So why do I go nuts if I get up to 158? Putting in in writing and realizing that this is considered "normal" by most of the population helps to put it in perspective. Intellectually, I am aware that a small gain (or loss) could be attributed to my hydration level and water retention, or many other things! I am aware that everyone's weight fluctuates every day. I just have to stop obsessing over it and embrace the new lifestyle that I've learned to accept and almost even enjoy.

Never reaching my goal...not being "skinny" after doing something as drastic as surgery. No one to blame but myself. Christy 235/158/166/145 HW/LW/CW/GW

Is starting to eat food again. I wanted to stay on the liquid protein for every because most of the foods I tried for the first 5 months made me deathly ill. Today it's a whole lot better and at 10 months post-op I can say it does get a bit more easy to keep food down but I still have the issue of eating to fast! Joni

exercising regularly. I hate exercising. I love to walk, but by time I get home it's getting dark and with all the ice, I don't like to walk in the dark or near dark, both am and pm. So, I'm praying for an early spring. Because I will walk everyday without fail, but hate to exercise to videos and stuff like that...

Exersize! I am so lazy. I do work a lot but that is no excuse.

The hardest thing so far has been accepting the rate of weight loss. It just feels so slow no matter what i do. Also, i kind of expected to in a smaller size by now .. but i guess i'll have to wait.

dealing with stalls. They SUCK!!!

Exercising! Start small...walking and work your way up but keep doing something! I LOVE the definition of the muscles I can see in my arms (makes up for the unfurled dragon wings underneath) and the strength in my legs. By the way, I broke up a girl fight the other day (yeah, I know, dangerous) and I backed the attacker who was supposed to be so big and bad right into the wall.

For me its remembering to take my vitamins. I have been trying real hard to get them in everyday. I haven't done great though. I am nearly 1 year out and I buy Centrums the bottle with 50 in then and I just bought my third bottle so I am about 3 bottles short on the vitamin total! So my goal is to take my vitamins!