Daily Post--1/21/08

Well, I guess it depends on the day. Some days, I look in the mirror and don't see the changes, I still see the fat girl. I'm trying to stop that and really look for the changes and stop the negative thoughts. I make myself look at my thinner face. Think about the smaller size bra and sweatshirts and pants. Then I feel better about myself. Jules

I see it now, but I'm certainly not strutting about it! I see a bit of improvement. I actually have a waist! LOL My tummy is slowly shrinking too .... I'm wearing a pair of misses pants at the moment for the first time since HIGH SCHOOL so that tells me something. Looking in the mirror and liking the way I actually look in them is just icing on the cake!

My clothes fit looser, the numbers on the scale have gotten smaller, and people comment on my weight loss, but honestly...I don't see it. I don't know if it is because I have been so overweight for so long, but I still see that person in the mirror. I would love to hear what others who have many years under their belt feel about this. Do you ever see the real you? Christy

I see my body just as bad as I saw it before. Just now instead of fat, it's all that hanging skin! It's a no win situation! lol Plastics are on the horizon though! Cheers!

Things haven't changed enough for me to see myself in total as much thinner, but I do notice that my clothes are looser, and I can do more things. The rest will come with time, I think. It's actually starting to scare me a little bit; this journey is going to take me to a place I've never been, a weight I've never been as an adult. How will I handle it? Gracefully, I hope. Any ideas from the "slimmies" out there who have already made the trip would be gratefully received.

I did buy new tighter close to show off the loss but do have trouble seeing the loss unless I look at pics.

There were pictures taken last week of me at my grandaughters first birthday.....and I still seen a FAT me....I am still not liking what i see....I do get comments from friends thought and they are calling me skinny.....I refuse to eat in front of anyone though because of the episodes of things getting stuck so they think I have stopped eatting! I have told the I just don't like how foods are cooked in this place where all the bus drivers go everyday for breakfast... I just have coffee and I usually take a yogurt with me......So no I do not see a body image change to date...

I Just looked at myself in my bra and underwear, beside the skin issue, I felt that I looked some what normal. I don't know if there will ever be a time that I wil be totally satified with myself.

What an interesting question. On the surface, I could answer it easily---yes I do see a difference---it took awhile but about 100 pounds down, I was seeing it. Was really anxious to see a friend who had not seen me for several months, to see her reaction. I won't say it was negative but she just didn't seem to believe that I had lost that much. It did make me feel bad and I started second guessing how I looked. Now at minus 169.8 pounds--I really see it and so does everyone else. Like others said, they do not see the naked body as I do, (thank goodness for clothes!!). I do not feel I am "skinny" as I am being called. I do not know what to say when asked "haven't you lost enough etc." I know I am not too thin at 5' 4.5" tall and 151 pounds---not even a normal BMI quite yet---but my legs are thin, I see collar bones and a thin neck. I too, think when I get that TT, I will feel "thin", maybe normal. I am 59 + years old so do not expect to be a fashion model or have the body I have always dreamed about but never had. That is sad in a way, as I know that if I had had this wonderful surgery when younger, I could have had a great body. I will be ecstatic with a nice looking bod in clothes at my age!!! Julia

I dont see a difference yet when i look in the mirror .. but i do notice my close are loose.