Daily Post--1/21/08

For some reason... I know i've lost over 100 lbs and I SEE it in the mirror... but i still feel like i'm 300 lbs. I wear a size 16 dress... compared to the 28 I used to... but I still feel like I'm the fat girl. I dont know, Its kind of strange. I see it but i dont feel it i guess. Krissy AKA Navywife25

I see changes. My face looks thinner. I know I feel better. We went to the snow to play this weekend and I had tons more energy. I saw a picture of me in the snow and I asked my husband "Is that really what I look like?" I was floored. He said yes and I just stared at the screen (on the dig. camera). It's the first time in YEARS I haven't seen a picture of myself and wanted to ground to open up ans swallow me. So, I guess I'm seeing changes but I'm nowhere near the strutting stage...yet.

To date I have lost 112 lbs., but for some reason I just don't see it as much as everyone else. I definitely feel better, but as far as judging how I am going to fit into a restaurant booth, and car I still see myself much larger. I am sure this is normal and within the next couple of months it will be different.

I can see the thinner me, but I still focus on the flaws. The saggy skin on my arms and legs, the tummy tuck that is not symetrical. In clothes I see the sexy me, but naked its worse then it was before the weightloss.

Most of the time I can not see the loss. But, there are those times that I catch a glimse of myself and I see it...even if only for that second. I'm sure this will get better with time. Rachelle

Sometime I still see myself as heavier not so much obese. Of course when I was obese I didn't see myself as that heavy either........lol I don't like to look at myself without clothes on because that really makes feel fat.

I can feel the change.. when all my pants..includeing jeans are baggy on my thighs.. everything has always been so tight. I can see it when I look in the mirror and don't have a ledge sticking out in back.. and I strut my stuff when I can button my blouse all the way to the bottom button and not wear it as an overshirt.

Wow this question has really made me stop and do some thinking. There are times when I can look in the mirror and see that I am thiner then I have ever been in 30 years, but most of the time all I can see is that I am still obese and have more weight to loose and wonder if I am ever going to be successful in my journey. Others tell me how good I look and I am greatful for their kindness, but yet because I have not recieved any "recognition" from a single man looking for a date I convince myself that I am still the "fat girl" who men do not find themselves attracted too. Then I get really angry at myself for allowing myself to think that the opinion of a man and how they treat me is more important then other things. Now I guess I will sit and ponder this subject a little more in my head.........lol Sally

I am more comfortable with my body, but at 50, lol I do not have a teen body and still am over weight so showing off is not an option!! lol... Plus i od have isssues with looking too good from my childhood... so not trying to look that good.. just normal...

I've lost 156lbs to date... with 12lbs to go. I'm finding when I sit inside my body and look out... I feel happier and healthier. I need to look at myself in mirrors and take pictures as well as weigh each day to see that low number. I enjoy hearing compliments from the right people. These tools help me register in my mind that I indeed am much smaller than my former self as well a beautiful confident woman and I'm very thankful. This is helping me. I walk around the house nekked and in bras/panties now... I feel more confident. I see my womanly curves... I don't need to lose anymore weight on any other area except for my tummy. The ps will help me in this area, it's really not that bad considering the trauma I placed my body in for all these years. I do feel guilt and shame for living that way for all those years and I'm dealing with that aspect. As far as strutting my stuff... I have a graceful stride... confidence... and I know I've come a long way... nonetheless it is indeed a freaky experience. And I've heard it can take many years to heal our insides after weight-loss. Thank you Lea... enjoy the Qs as usual... really makes me think... and I need this. Kim